Partially-new celebrity husband.

Partially new, because I kinda like him a bit. :/

Zico, from Block B. :D

Next time you point the finger, I'll point you to the mirror.

Sometimes I wish that liars will all go to hell.

Or let me have some sort of super power, where I can transmit? Give off? create? some sort of ultrasonic sound over the phone.
So all dem fuckers who think they can be nasty, or think that it's fine for them to lie, will have blood shooting out of their ears, or their heads will vibrate so much that it explodes.

Just recently, I had to deal with this compulsive lying bitch, who told me she has paid for the class.

She did not turn up for the class, saying that she did not receive the confirmation email from the instructor that she's part of the class, and since she didn't make payment for the class, she did not think that it would matter anyway.

And the instructor, expects me to pay for her assistant fee.

Well, FUCK.YOU.

Dear bitches, I hope you trip over your own legs and fall flat on your face for the next three months. May all your teeth drop out, or you will bite your own tongue every time you open your mouth to speak.

Dear meanies,

I think customers are under the impression that if they are nasty to the people serving them, things will get done a lot better and more efficiently.

Dear nasty customers, honestly, what makes you think I care about your piddily ass problems? The world doesnt revolve around your sorry ass and frankly, your attitude makes me want to get things done a lot slower just so I can piss you off even more.

I have encountered, just recently, this mean guy who thinks that we are after his money, which, honestly, is not a huge sum.

Granted that it is still money, no matter what, but honestly, how hard is it for you to phrase your words nicely in a polite tone? There really is no need for you to talk down on anybody just because we are not some high-flying person who lives a jet-setting life where you are flying in and out of town so much that you dont even remeber how to be nice to others.

Sometimes I wish I have a giant hand so I can smack them down.

Ch-ch-ch-change.

I want to chop my hair this short, but many people have issues with it. -_-

I want the best of both worlds. ;_;

I am at the crossroads of my life once again, which is not surprising.

I once had big dreams, now I sound old. ;_;

I once had big dreams, of leaving this country and never coming back.

And I was looking forward to fulfilling that dream of mine as I age.

I was looking forward to cutting off all ties with my relatives, friends and family.

I was looking forward to start afresh in a country where nobody knows who I am and who I was in the past.

That little dream of mine has been wavering a lot in the past couple of months.

I couldn't get into the agency I wanted, and I didn't plan out a second route for myself because to me, it was DO-OR-DIE.

I refuse to let go of that little dream I had, in fact, I was clinging on to it desperately because I really wanted it to work out for the greater good... and for myself. :/

Whenever I tell close friends, because I don't talk to my family, about my dream, I would always get funny stares from them, and a patronizing "I will support you in whatever you do."

Only 2 or 3 of my friends have been pushing me, constantly nagging at me to go do something about it.

This whole I-HAVE-A-DESTINY-TO-FULFIL thing has been bothering me a lot, and it has made me extremely depressed because of things people have been saying to me.

:/ I still believe that I will get there, to wherever I want, someday, sooner or later. But recently, I have been considering the options of dying a nobody in Singapore, where I still have to be in contact with relatives, friends and family.

The only thing that will get me through this entire... ordeal, is the thought of moving out of my parents' house, living my life in a God-forsaken place where I will be far, FAR away from my family. :/

I really don't care whether it's God-forsaken or not, as long as I have my basic necessities like hot water, clean toilet, a kitchen, internet, electricity and personal space, and maybe a room-mate to abuse... Like Leonard from Big Bang Theory.

Slowly, I think I have been starting to let go of that little dream I try to hold on to so desperately... although they keep coming back to haunt me every so often. ):

Life, it's depressing to just live.

Right now, I guess I am still trying to appreciate the simple things in life, and at the same time convince myself that being in Singapore is not so bad. At least I can meet up with my friends for dinner after work, even when given last-minute notice about things like that.

I sometimes wonder though, did God spend a little too much time on the people who are living out my dream now, or is He enjoying this show He's watching from above, as His many believers as Him for help in fulfilling their prayers.

Hey there, how's life?

Hey there, how's life?

I've gotten myself a real job, so blogging is no longer a priority... like it was a priority in the first place.

I'm adapting well to a life where I just work and not think about what I really want to do in future.
Obviously, by getting myself a real job, in a way, I have already given up on whatever I used to call "my dream".

In exchange for minimum wage, I am working at a place where it is filled with things that I have no knowledge of, and have no interest in.

I still want what I want, but I am no longer actively trying to pursue what is deemed as impossible.
I no longer have the time to commit, and things like that wait for no man.

Sometimes I wonder if giving up on "my dream" has forced me to start looking for an alternative, where I have to settle for something I declare as second best.

For now, I shall just try blogging a bit more, just to see how far I can go along with this.

Imma blog, imma blog. imma, imma, imma blog~

Hello there,

It's been a while. (:

I have been busy with my new job and stuff... and busy trying to doll myself up for my brother's wedding which was last Sunday. :/

Today happened to be a public holiday, therefore I am blogging.

I haz a job~, as mentioned above.

The pay is decent, the hours are awesome. The location, even better.

It takes me an hour to get to work, not that I mind.

Because it is always good to spend time apart from the family memberzzzz.

I haz new hair now.. :/ and Imma post a photo because that way, my blog post will seem more interesting~.

This is my new hair. And if you are wondering, I did not shave it.

I pinned it back because my job requires me to have normal-looking hair styles.

And this was my outfit for the event.

My calves look chunky because of the shoes, assholes.

Shirt : H&M

Leggings : Cotton On

Pants : FEP, the shop closed down already.

Shoes : JS Adidas Gold Wings

Accessories : MMM Incognito-inspired sunglasses from Ebay

And I made the harness-looking chain-like thingy myself.

Spikes from F21

and the watch is JS Lightning Bolt watch from Swatch.

And tadah~,

This is an update.

I am having an ongoing war with my family memberzzzz, if you all are wondering.

My mother has taken it upon herself again to throw my things away without asking me. I had to come home to 2 garbage bags full of my stuff outside my house, only to have her say, in her self-righteous tone that all my stuff were junk.

And for some reason, she thinks that by doing my laundry (not very well) and stuffing me with $20 will make me stop hating her for what she has done.

My father cleared up the mess I specially made for her, as an act of revenge. Therefore we are not speaking as well.

I really do not care about my brother enough to do anything, sorry.

Tadah, an update.

I want to be that girl...

The one who has everything in her bag...

picture credit : http://thingsorganizedneatly.tumblr.com/

Makeup pouches and all...

Random Photo Update.

This is a pile of shiny, silver badges.

This is a photo of the shiny badges up close, in detail.

And here it is again.

This is my fangirl, wearing her blazer with the shiny badges on them.

YES, I HAVE A FANGIRL.

Someday...

SOMEDAY...

I will find a boyfriend who will remember my birthday.

I will find a boyfriend who will LAST till my birthday, at least.

I will be someone's eyecandy.

I will find a guy who will not ask me to wear a dress, or skirt... or constantly whine that I do not wear a dress or a skirt.

I will find a guy who is not clingy. BITCH, I DON'T DO CLINGY, or emotional.

(I know I date like a guy. Shut up about it already.)

I will find a Scandinavian boyfriend who is at least 1.8m tall, hair-free from nose down, practise good hygiene habits AND SMELL NICE.

I WILL BE RICH AND FAMOUS, and all those who go against me will all go dowwwwwn. >DD

Well, a girl can dream. :/

I sincerely do not see the point of me helping you with your stuff because you only approach me for help when you need it.

Fuck off.

You're my melody~

Today has been a productive day...

Seeing as how I am unemployed, and have been rolling out of bed at 1 in the afternoon, I take doing anything useful as productive. :/

I should start blogging daily, updating the world and myself the things I have accomplished for the day so as to make me feel a little better, and not as useless. :/

So today, I...

Fixed my favourite Lime Crime lipstick. :D

Well I love all my Lime Crime lipsticks, especially the bright ones.

But recently I have been opting for this... more mellow and regular shade of orange(Cosmopop). :/

SEE, I AM CHANGING FOR THE WORST! ;A;

And it's my "new" Blackberry Curve you see next to it, because I didn't want my lipstick to feel lonely in the photo.

It's "new" because,

I just got it, but it once belonged to my brother who is now using the Bold, I think.

It was either I take it, or he sell it. So I took it, and had intentions of using it as a paperweight... or door stopper. :/

But yeah, I took it so I can master it and consider getting the Torch next year. Or I could always opt for the Iphone 4. :/

YES, I LIKE OLD PHONES. Judge me all you want. Hmph.

Recorded the two songs that were long overdue, I think. :/

Took me a good 2 hours to record my parts for one song, and in all honesty, I really don't sound good in recordings at all. D:

Did the laundry~!

Or am going to. :/ I like doing the laundry, and paper mopping my room. D: Do not judge.

Updated my resume~!

Because I think I have found a job I might be interested in. :D And I am hoping to get it instead of falling back on my backup plan because I think my dad hopes that I will go work for the gahmen for the rest of my life, like him. D:

Beaming a lot because of the awesome dream I have had the night before~!

I dreamt that YG told me that I will be joining his company... One can dream, right?

Either that or it is time I try out for YGE again, this time more seriously. :/

That is all I have done for the day.

Now to Photoshop my brother's photos to make him uh, look better in his wedding montage. :/

Something I need to get off my chest.

I know, I know.

I know I haven't done a proper update in like, 2 million years.

BUT I AM UPDATING MY BLOG NOW.

In lieu of recent events, I have too many things I want to get off my chest. And because I am typing this out at like... 12:27am in the morning, do not mind the randomness that you see on this post or else many words will be exchanged on Twitter.

#1.

I am now unemployed. ;A;

If you are following me on Twitter, and you happen to see my tweets, whining about my life, don't ignore it. SHOW ME SOME LOVE PLEASE.

If only I was a famous blogger, or something. And if only I still have the will to want to pursue what I have set out to do. :/

I am now sending out resumes and stuff, in hopes of getting a job by September because...

#2.

I am getting my teeth fixed, for the second time.

In case the many people who read my blog have no idea about this, I have had braces for 5 years.

I have had them when I was 10, took them out when I was 15.

And yet, my teeth still looks... the way it does today. -_-

And because I am unemployed now, I have decided to get the cheaper alternative, which are aligners.

And cheaper does not mean it's THAT cheap.

Those aligners have wiped out $800 from my savings. Yay me. -_-

And every 2-3 months, I have to go back and get a new one, which will set me back another $300.

The joy, and I am unemployed. ;A;

#3.

HAPPY THINGS TO SHARE : SOMEONE NICE HAVE ASKED ME TO COLLABORATE WITH THEM IN A SONG COVER. :D

Me, being the one who can't sing to save my life, have the honour of doing the rap parts... because the nice person said she likes my rapping.

And if it all goes well, I MIGHT post it up here for the world to see. :D

#4.

My hypothetical husband, Tom Kaulitz, has dumped me for a hotter chick 6 years his senior. ;A;

Which leaves me in a vulnerable state where I just might like any random Singaporean guy off the streets.

NEED.NEW.CELEBRITY.HUSBAND.NOW.

#5.

I am breaking out like nobody's business.

Yes, I feel the need to share this because this is my blog.

No, I do not give a fuck about what you are going to say about it.

;_; or maybe I do... AH, just give me a break.

I have been spamming sheet masks and clay masks on my face every day now. And it is healing, which is good. So I am hoping in a week or two, I will be able to go out in public with just BB cream and powder, and lots of eye makeup.

._.

#6.

I am trying, desperately to lose weight now because my brother's wedding is in like... 2 months time?

And because there are photos of me in his wedding montage.

I do not want any of my relatives to go :

"Aw she was so skinny then! BUT JUST LOOK AT HER NOW!"

*sniggers*

Bitch, PLEASE!

Let me handle one tragedy at a time.

#7.

Apparently, my style/I am changing. D:

This is not a good thing, and this is really a major crisis.

._.

I happened to like someone... probably. :/

And for some unknown reason, I am becoming more girly. D:

I am starting to like uh, vintage-y charms and such...?

Just the accessories part, which is not that bad yet.

THAT.IS.AN.ABOMINATION.

I do not need you people to judge me, because I am already judging myself for changing. -_-

Dear LORD!

ONE TRAGEDY AT A TIME! PLEASE!

That is all I have to update for now.

I am hoping that I will be able to do more frequent updates, with photos and such. :/

Because the blogs I read, dem bloggers always photograph everything.

And by everything, I really do mean EVERYTHING.

And it makes their blog so interesting! D:

Maybe that's why they have more readers and followers and such...

Oh well... :/

Roo is old. ;A;

I recently turned 21.

And with nothing to my name, I am officially old and useless. ;_;

I feel pretty enough to post this up.

I was having a good-hair day today.

And I was trying out one of my many new lipsticks.

And my skin is healing up pretty nicely.

Therefore, being a Leo, I took many many many photos of myself, because I am only young once. ;_;

And being shameless, I posting it up on my blog.

Don't judge, bitches.

I posted that last photo, bottom right hand corner, on Twitter this afternoon.

Original picture shown below.

Yep, and I consider this as an update.

My childhood... sorta. :/

I haz been helping my brother scan photos for his wedding montage, and uh, during this time, I realise that I have changed a lot, looks wise, growing up.

You know the saying :

"The only person who can love him/her is his/her mother."

Looking at those photos, that saying is uh, invalid, because I am pretty sure even my mother is unable to love me from the way I looked when I was younger. D:

D:

Why do I even have friends?! D:

Oh, but at least I had pretty legs then, and longer hair. And I looked more like a girl then.

I was 11. D: And I was forced to take this after someone kissed me on the cheek. ;A;

ME NO LIKEY WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH ME! D<

I was 11..

And apparently I have been taking photos like that ever since. D:

I was 8, and I was vain. And skinny. :/

And apparently I always do the peace sign when taking photos. D:

I was 9,

and this was taken in Bangkok at the hotel lobby because my mother is cheesy like that.

I was 11, and I was made to take this photo with my brother's textbook.

He wrapped his textbooks with pictures of steroid-filled musclemen. ._.

Kt said I look like a Japanese school girl. D:

I just think I look nothing like myself now. D: And I really wondered what happened to me growing up. D;

Dear Roo,

how did you become so fat?! D:

Sincerely, Self.

Many things I do not get.

I haz time, therefore I shall blog.

I am in my shop, waiting for my Ryuk 2.0 to die before I charge it and I feel... "inspired" to blog this out.

Many things I do not get :

Why would someone try so hard to impress other people, then when they get a chance to, they'll just bitch about you behind your back?

Or simply, just try so hard to impress other people for the sake of appearing popular.

There is this girl, used to be a good friend of mine, I blogged about her before.

She was a good friend of mine, till she started getting on my nerves. :/ Maybe "getting on my nerves" is not a good way to describe what happened.

We were good friends, so whenever there's class projects, we would team up together with the other bunch of people we hung out with. And they, like her, would not put any effort into the project and would rather spend time talking about boys on magazines. -_-

And she would always, I repeat : ALWAYS, ask me to introduce my friends to her, then she would act all close with them, blah blah blah.

The entire scene would be something like this...

Me talking about this random guy friend of mine, and she would go

"Who is he?! How you know him?! INTRODUCE TO ME LEH!"

All of that, happening when she has a boyfriend. -_-

And that pissed the shit out of me.

She would try and impress them, and then start acting all close to them because she wants to fit in and pretend that she's popular.

Why, bitch?! Bitch, why?!

And when I cut off all ties with her, she would say that I am PMS-ing all the time, and would go "What is your problem?!" in a self-righteous tone. -_-

And by the way, because we are no longer friends, I have blocked her on Facebook and such, and she went ahead and used her boyfriend's account to stalk me.

Dear bitch,

My friends are mine, your friends are yours.

I don't care about introducing them to you because you are not a nice person.

Why do you have to pretend to be a nice person and try and impress them when clearly you are nothing like the way you portray yourself to be?!

Now get over it and stop stalking me.

Sincerely,

Roo.

And then, there's this other girl, whom I was addressing in my previous post. The very nice girl who made me the happiest girl in the entire world.

(FYI : It was sarcasm, by the way.)

That was a girl I met not too long ago for the first time in my entire life. I admit that I have heard of her, and I did do my background search before I met her.

I had a pretty bad impression of her at first, but my good friend said I should just be civil towards her, which I did, because I am usually never polite or in general, nice, to people I dislike or have a bad impression of.

And for some reason, me being civil was apparently the cue for her to climb over my head and pee all over it.

And for some reason, I still manage to "pissed the shit out of her". Or rather, she offended me on the day we met, in a very very very ridiculous fashion.

At first when I met her, she started acting all... Nice. :/ That is the best word I can use to describe the way she was acting, because right after "Hello" she went ahead and became a bitch.

She either has issues with me helping my friend out with her makeup, or me making so much noise when I first came into the room, or because I warm up to people easily, therefore the spotlight is on me, the awesomest one, and no longer her.

(That is probably irrelevant, but I just wanted to put that on my blog. Don't judge me.)

From what I heard about her, she's not a very nice person, obviously.

She acts all nice in front of others and once they're gone, she would start bitching about them.

Seriously?!

And she expects people to be there when she needs help, be there when she summons them for an outing, be on her side whenever she throws a hissy fit or whine or pick a fight.

And probably the only reason why she still has friends is because the people around her is nice enough to not want to cut her off, and ostracise her.

Dear Passive People,

Sometimes you need to cut people off in your lives. People who are not nice, people who cause shit, people who start dramas, and people who pretend they are your friends and bitch about you the moment you turn around. There is nothing nice or good about pitying her because she doesn't deserve your kindness.

Sincerely,

Roo.

Dear bitch,

You better thank your lucky stars that you have met a bunch of really nice, kind, good people in school because I am pretty damn sure that if you were in my school, or in my course, I would cut you off and pretty much leave you hanging alone. Someday, someday I swear someone will stand up to you, and Karma will be waiting to bite you in the ass. And stop bullying my friend, you cunt, or else the person who will stand up to you is ME and be prepared to get hurt real badly.

Sincerely,

Roo.

Just something to uh, entertain my "blog readers" for the moment.

._.

Let's just put it this way:
This blog post/video thingy is, in a way, dedicated to this very nice girl I met not too long ago who made me just the happiest girl in the entire world.

._. Enjoy.

Photo!

Here is evidence that I am a pedophile. ;A;

I can't help but like pretty little boys. ):

He should be 15 by now. D:

I wonder if he is still as handsome...

Picture Heavy Post.

The Blog-5-Days-A-Week thing with categories is not working out for me, obviously. :/

At the moment, I am at the crossroads of my life again. :/ I have to decide whether I am going to settle down and give into Fate, or in Chinese, 认命 , or still fight for the things I want.

And it doesn't help that I have about $6000 worth of debt. Education loan, my mother used her CPF to pay for my Polytechnic school fees. So now I have to pay it back, the full sum plus interest.

That is one of the many reasons why I have been so depressed lately. D:

Bah, anyway, I was looking through my folders in my laptop, and I found a whole bunch of random photos that I have never posted up on my blog before, probably. :/

So I shall just spam photos here, because I want to update my blog, but I am not in the mood to type out my feelings here. :/

I got a new blogskin image by the way. :D

I just need to figure out how to work the CSS thing because I have so many things I want to edit. D:

My birthday uh, last year?

Fair legs iz mine.

Curled my hair for the first time with my flat iron.

Hip-hop yo, hip-hop.

First time looking like a girl in Year 1.

Check out my ba-bling~!

Uh, camwhoring before crit. ._.

Lady Gaga shades and Lime Crime lipstick in Styletto.

One of my favourite hoodies now. :D

My coolio red hair which I miss a lot.

Ashler, Val and I at Botanical Gardens in Year 2.

Yiliang and I. D:

Fay being super kawaii. :D

SGBlogAwards 2 years ago. :/

I shall just post these up for now. :/

I sincerely hope and pray that I will be able to decide what I want to do with my life soon. ):

Random Item of the Day #2!

Random Item of the Day #2!

It has been... less than a week, and I am already feeling a little tired of blogging nearly everyday. D:

I think coming up with topics to blog about is a lot harder than it looks.

:/ I think I have a newfound respect for bloggers who update their blogs everyday, with photos and all.

I am one who can't even be bothered to Photoshop my photos and watermark them, just because my photos are nothing special. D:

So today's Random Item of the Day...

Is not really AN item, but a whole bunch of them.

This is my drawer of backups.

In it, I have...

1. 4 tubes of mascara
2. 1 tube of liquid eyeliner.
3. 6 tubes of masks, 2 of which are for removing blackheads on the nose.
4. 2 bottles of toner.
5. 2 bottles of serum.
6. 1 bottle of sunblock, surprisingly.
7. 1 tube of eyeshadow primer.
8. 3 packs of makeup wipes.
9. 2 sample-size tubes of anti-aging cream because I am a a kiasu Singaporean like that.
10. 2 tubs of moisturiser.
11. 1 tube of uh, makeup base? I bought in Hong Kong which I have no idea what to use it for. I just might give it away.
12. 4 bottles of BB cream.
13. 1 bottle of Tea Tree Oil.

Eeeyeah, that should be about it.

I like buying a whole bunch of makeup/skin care products and just keep it at home till I am done with what I am using at the moment.

Simply because sometimes, some places have sale and it is wise to stock up on stuff like my toner. And also because I like to tweak my skincare routine a bit every now and then.

I was thinking of posting up my makeup stash, I think my eyeshadow stash is pretty decent. :/ But I am in the midst of giving stuff away to friends, so I think that might wait till I am done sifting.

I will post it up soon though. ._.

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These days, I have been uh, feeling really depressed...

If that is even the right word for it.

I am sick and tired of eating, which is not normal for me because I nearly always think about food.

I don't have the urge to go shopping, which is also not normal for me because I am usually always seen shopping online, even when I have to do online research for work.

And I can't seem to find anything to do online (because I like to push blogging to the back of my head) at all. D: I used to spend my days watching Youtube videos, and now, I get bored after 1-2 hours of video watching. D:

I think I am getting tired of living, because I am not doing what I want.

D:

Being alive is depressing...

Random update.

I... couldn't find anything interesting to blog about today...

So I am just going to update slightly here because it doesn't make sense to write paragraphs and paragraphs of things that are so random. :/

• I haz found my missing $50. It flew into a little corner of my room.
• My father pronounces "Mio" as in MioTV as "Mayo".
• I realise I pack my table at least 5 times a day because I can't stand a messy table and yet I keep messing it up.
• I love Daiso, how can anyone now love it?
• I have been on a makeup/skincare clearing spree. I am giving away stuff of mine, after I have cleaned it, to friends. Not really giving, more like stuffing them with it just because I have too much and I want to buy more, therefore I need the space.
• Lately I have been feeling like a mother. :/ I am nagging friends of mine to print their stuff early.
• I am officially too fat to fit into my fat clothes. Today, the elastic band of my polka dot harem pants just went *POP*. Now I can't wear it anymore till I've fixed it.
• When elastic bands in your clothes burst, it says a lot.
• I really need to start sewing stuff again because I am pretty sure I am wasting a lot of time at home doing nothing.
• I am sad that Desperate Housewives, Big Bang Theory, Vampire Diaries, HIMYM is over. I really don't care that much about Modern Family because I hate Cam and I hate Phil.
• But I can look forward to uh, Pretty Little Liars and True Blood. :D
• Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency is very entertaining. :D
• It is official that I dislike skinny people. Skinny people, GO AWAY! D<
• I have been enjoying many good hair days because of my new hair treatment masque. :D
• Harvesting my emotions is not going well because instead of using those emotions to motivate me, I am... leaning slightly towards "giving into Fate" and just sell my soul to the corporate world.
• I am in need of a new hair colour and cut. D: Which I need help deciding. D:
• I realise I am very into purple and blue these days. I have passed the Orange phase... hopefully. :D
• My Hot Topic stuff is arriving! :D
• I am thinking of buying more lipsticks because I just found out that they may just get discontinued like that. D:
• I am very thankful that Tiger Beer keeps contacting me for Blogger Events, but D: I don't drink, even though I am of the legal age. So I am apologizing here for not replying all the time to their invitations. D:
• My eye candy is attached. Eye candy, I guess?! Given that I have yet to see his face properly... I saw him with his girlfriend today, which is a good thing. :D
• I want to curl into a ball and roll around the room and whine about my life. Don't judge me.
• I think people would love to see blogs with shitloads of photos. And if you are here because you are expecting many photos, I am sorry. I don't camwhore like the other bloggers, and I don't like sharing what I wore, ate and bought that day because :/ I eat normal food in giant portions and I wear whatever I like, and by not showing, I am saving myself the criticism from the rest of the world.
• I really need to go to Salvation Army soon to donate my clothes. D:
• I wish I had everything come easy for me. Like "I wish I could model" and TADA, I am immediately of model-material, being signed to Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency. I am referring to Brittany Picozzi here.
• I haven't been catching up with Kpop songs and news lately, just because there are too many groups out there these days, and I am listening to the older songs and Nicki Minaj these days.
• I am breaking out like nobody's business! D< Pimples, get the fuck off my awesome face, thanks.

I think that is all I have to say for now...

Will update again soon! :D

Family.

Looks like I have been keeping up with my schedule... :D Kinda. :D

3 posts in a week, it has been a really long time since I have been blogging this much. :D

I think Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays will be just random posts days, because I don't think I will be able to keep up with having lots of photo shoots on Wednesdays, just so I can post up the pretty pictures on Thursdays on my blog. D:

Mmm, today's topic is a little random.

It only came to mind after my friends, Maureen and Danni, said they wanted to know what my brother looks like.

See, there is this HUGE age gap between us, 9 years. It is not that huge to the point where there is a significant generation gap between us, but it is huge enough for the world to know that I am his younger sister whenever we hang out together.

For some reason, either my brother USED to like hooking up with little girls, or I look old, which is totally not the case because I use sunblock regularly, people keep mistaking me for his girlfriend. -_-

Sorry, my future sister-in-law. D: You need to appear next to him more often. D:

I was looking for my IC the day before my graduation ceremony, because it was needed.

(Yes, I know I need to keep my IC in a safe place because it cost $150 to make a new one. -_-)

And instead of finding my IC, I found old photos of my family hidden in some corner of my room.

D: I have no idea why I have them, because if it were up to me, the only photos displayed or hidden in my room would be photos of me... Pretty photos of me.

And so, I have decided to share them here... because it's my blog and I want to.

Note that some of the photos are really old. D: So the quality and colour is not as great as it used to be.

So this is my family, taken when I still had long black hair. D:

During Chinese New Year before I was 6... I think I was either 4 or 5 in that photo. D:

Yes, my dad looks like General Tojo, everyone has been saying that. -_-

As long as you do not take my father away as a war criminal, you may feel free to go on and on about him looking like that Japanese General from WW2.

I posted this photo before, but I think I took down the post when I went on a blog-cleaning spree.

I was 2, given the number of candles on my cake, and the round red things you see there, those are red eggs.

Yes, eggs were that big then. And they are insanely tiny now.

That's my mother and I, at my late-grandmother's house on the other side of Singapore. D:

I was probably 9... And I used to wear that shirt ALL.THE.TIME.

Yes, I was never fat my entire life, i only ballooned up after puberty.

Most recent Polaroid of my brother and I, taken on my graduation day AT NIGHT, when he came down to pick me up after I missed the last bus home.

Yes, I still have cheeks, and I know I am super-kawaii in that shot.

*flips hair*

My family likes to believe that we are a very close-knit family...

That's all I can say about it.

There are times when I do not feel connected to anyone at all, and there are times I actually found it ridiculous that the family still thinks and believes that we are very close. :/

But that is life, isn't it?

Everyone knows that friends come and go, but family sticks together forever. So even if you're not close to any of them, you can sort of always count on them to be there somehow. :/

Random Item of the Day! :D

Every Wednesday is

RANDOM ITEM OF THE DAY

... day. D:

And today's item is! :DD

FYI : If you have no idea who/what that is, then you are not my friend, AT ALL.

Graduation.

I skipped blogging yesterday because it was my graduation ceremony and I didn't want to be home early. :/

I didn't get to blog... So much for my blog-for-5-days-a-week plan. Bah.

But I am going to make up for it with two short posts today. :D

Graduation was... Ok? D: It was a warm day, and wearing the robe and white formal shirt made it harder for me to endure. D:

The entire process went by really quickly, and rest of the time was spent on taking photos with my course mates whom I won't be seeing for like, the rest of my life, or maybe those occasional few times where we would bump into each other in the middle of Orchard Road.

): That's right, I don't deal well with seperation. ):

I ended up using 2 packs of Instax films, because I am lazy to use my digital camera to take photos. Which is a good thing, since my Instax Camera has always been collecting dust in a little corner all this while.

I will be scanning the photos, and I might consider uploading them later in a seperate blog post. :D

I am slightly happy, and slightly depressed that I have officially graduated.

Happy, because I no longer have to deal with AutoCad drawings, spending money on model-making materials and printing, rushing for deadlines, and the lack of sleep. Yes, the world is now a brighter, happier place for me.

But it is depressing because I know for sure that after this, we will never see each other again. And planning for gatherings is a damn hard thing, with all the guys going to NS, and some people flying overseas to study. ;A; We are never going to see each other again. ;A;

Although... I am happy that I don't have to deal with the people I don't like anymore. :D

I will miss abusing all my friends into doing my bidding.

MUAHAHAHAHA.

Like abusing Henry, Yiliang, Allen and Val into telling me stuff, or just for the fun of it.

Bullying Shufei into helping me buy Bubble Tea, walking home from school with Dawn, singing and pretending to dance with Ashler, Ah Mun, Esther and Jiamin,telling long-hair Yuxuan that she sucks and she goes D: , talking all about Geun Suk Oppa with short-hair Yuxuan, poking random people because I felt like it, making Ah Mun go over to the laser cutting workshop to help me with my model...

It looks like I am a huge bully. D: But it was fun while it lasted... HAHAHAHA.

At the end of the day... I wonder if they will remember me. :/ Ten years down the road, will we still keep in contact with each other? ):

Poly has made me a happier person. Secondary school was just... bullshit for me. Maybe because I had a hard time fitting in, maybe because the people in secondary school didn't like my face, but I remember having a hard time in school, to the point where it was hard to even want to wake up and turn up for lessons.

Primary and Secondary school was a dark period for me. I remember laughing my head off while watching horror movies, just because I thought it was really fun to see people in pain. And all the stuff I had were black, white and red. Because other colours were too happy for my liking.

Now, I dress like rainbow vomit, not exactly. But I have changed a lot since, and I love all things colourful now. Hahaha, I can only take black and white in small doses.

Poly has been a wonderful time for me, minus the workload...

Ok, enough of chessy, sappy stories about what Poly has done for me mental wellbeing.

Right now, I have to go clean my bed room. D: And do a bit of laundry, because I am a neat freak like that. D:

WAZZUP WORLD! + Video of the week.

WAZZUP WORLD!

I know it has been a really long time since I had actually churned out a decent blog post.

Decent, meaning it has more than 2 lines, and is actually something meaningful to me, probably. :/

I am on my way to becoming a little more active online since I realise I can make money out of it, which I will explain now.

(This is going to be a long post... D:)

See, if you actually read my blog consistently, you would know that I had just graduated from Poly. (THREE YEARS OF HELL!!!!)

And while my classmates are busy looking for jobs, or looking to further their studies, OR are waiting for enlistment, I have actually been bumming around a lot at home.

I am still working part-time at that children clothes shop, since I have nothing better to do at home and I need the money to maintain my lifestyle of shopping online. So yes, I am still working at that children clothes shop.

The pay is... slightly better than average. Since there are people who only pay $4.50/hr, therefore I dare say that my boss is actually paying me rather well.

I have made some money through Nuffnang, and it has recently slowed down a lot. (because I got lazy to blog.) And I had actually made money through ChurpChurp, its Twitter counterpart. Therefore I figured it wouldn't be that bad to accumulate some extra cash online, since every bit of money counts right now. :/

And to keep myself on track, I have made a list of topics I will be blogging on a daily basis for 5 days a week, an idea I got from Doe Deere.

Every Monday, I will be posting up a video of the week, and I shall wing it for the other 4 days. :/ Kinda.

Expect to see more pictures, hopefully, if I can get myself to use my camera to snap something interesting.

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Stuff that has happened to me recently, I shall just update you quickly in point form, starting with the boring stuff...

Because I am badass like that.

• I have overspent again this month, therefore no online shopping for the month of June. ):
• I have an asymmetrical hair cut now! :D Which reminds me that I need a haircut, desperately. D:
• I am in the midst of changing my blogskin again.
• I have started watching Desperate Housewives Season 7. :D
• I ate sushi buffet, for two days in a row. ;A;
• I have decided that I should lose weight before my brother gets married, but so far, I haven't done anything about it. I am still eating whatever I want, and I am not exercising as much as I wanted. Which means I did exercise ok!
• I am still going to chase after that impossible dream of mine, even though I know only one person is supporting me.
• Somebody nominated my blog for the OMY SGBlogAwards. Which is nice, if it is not a prank. But it makes me wonder why did that person nominate me for the WTH category, since I haven't posted anything WTH-ish in a very long time. I did join in the end, hopefully I will win something nice. I want to win the tickets to Melbourne, Australia. D:

Not sure is it because I smile too much...

Or is it because I wear colourful things.

But people tend to just not take me seriously and even think it's OK to just only talk to me or ask me out when they need to.

I am not some charity organisation, I do not need your charity.

People expect me to be there for them, be there when they need people.

But when it's time to "repay the favour", they just disappear.

So what the fuck am I to them?!

WHAT.THE.FUCK.AM.I.TO.THEM?!

My social circle is small, as I have mentioned a thousand and one times on this blog of mine. But I feel that because it's small, each friend is hand-picked (kinda), so it would at least mean something to both of us.

Because while I am friendly to most people, that does not necessarily mean that they are automatically a part of my social circle. And especially since I filter people out of it every once in a while...

I just feel like I am not being treated around with enough respect as a human. BAH, fucking humans.

It's PMS period, I need an outlet to vent out my frustrations.

It's been a long time coming...

So I have graduated... As I have mentioned in my previous posts...

I have been bumming around at home, planning out things that will not be coming to fruition any time soon. I realise that I really need to start becoming more active online again because D: I have no intentions of getting a real job out there that pays me more than $1k a month. Bah.

So in the meantime, I shall blog in point form. About the things... :/

I have been craving for...

• Fried Chicken
• Sushi
• Spaghetti Bolognaise
• Kimchi Fried Rice

I have been really annoyed at...

• My Mother (which really is no surprise.)
• The Weather (OMG WILL IT KILL SOMEONE TO MAKE IT NOT SO WARM?!)
• The fact that I wake up at 1:07pm every afternoon, bumming around like nobody's business.

I have been wanting...

• TO GO OVERSEAS AGAIN. (I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE NOT WARM AT ALL!)

I have been doing stuff like...

• Painting my nails at 4pm everyday, then proceed on to ruining my manicure and then having to remove it. Yes, I do it everyday at 4pm. ;A;
• Deciding that I need to blog, but I have too many shows to watch.
• Making plans to edit my videos, but again, I have too many shows to watch.

At least I was productive yesterday. I did my laundry AND wash my bedsheets. D:

Now to start blogging more regularly... D:

Depressingly Hopeless...

):

So, after much struggling, I am finally graduating, and leaving, the hellhole known as Singapore Poly, Interior Design.

And I should be happy. Like really, really really happy. But somehow, instead of joy and happiness bursting out of my chest, I became depressed instead. D:

I have had plans for the future, but not everything seems to be going according to plan, which I had already expected.

But instead of picking myself up, like I should, I became so hopeless that I think I am probably really going to end up sad and depressed, doing an admin job for $1k/mth.

I need to find that bit of conviction I had during my internship. The conviction I had to make sure that I avoid doing Interior Design for the rest of my pathetic life.

Dear Lord...

Let me get a reply.

This is what I want to do for the rest of my life

& I would give up anything for it.

R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

In Korea, being respectful is being emphasized because it is THAT important.

When the younger generation show respect to their elders, in return they get the same amount of respect that they deserve.

These days, it is obviously not something common seen because I feel that young people are not getting the respect they deserve as a person.

You see, when we are young, we are being taught that we have to listen to what our parents say, we have to be respectful to our elders etc.

I see myself as someone who have those moral values instilled in me.

But I cannot help but feel that this is not going to work out for me.

Let's see eh...

I am currently working at a children clothes shop. I am a part-timer because I was a student and I could only afford to work on certain days of the week. So obviously, there would be a full-timer who is working there most of the time, and I would come work when she needs to have her day off.

The system is rather simple, no fuss at all.

But there is something insanely wrong with this lady, let's call her S.

There was another full-timer before S appeared. And the full-timer left because of some issues she had with the boss, which was really my bosses' loss.

The full-timer is not only capable, she is also not as scheming and is overall a nicer person.

But anyway, she left after Chinese New Year last year, so S got hired and from then on, everything has gone downhill.

See, S first started out as a rather nice lady. She would do everything within her job scope, which was to make sure that there are labels on the clothes and that the clothes are being displayed out.

But slowly, she started revealing her true colours...

She started hiding the products, most of the products that are sellable. And she would always get her friends to come down and buy stuff from her, oh, and make sure to tell those regular customers to come down and buy clothes whenever she is working which right now means from Tuesday to Saturday.

And whenever I have slightly better business on a day that was suppose to be a rather quiet day, say Monday, because people hardly go out shopping after work on a Monday night, she would call me up and start questioning me, and start ordering me to do things for her.

Like sweep the floor for her, and changing the water.

HELLO?! It is not as if I do not perform all these house keeping tasks. I sweep the floor too ok, every night after I close the shop.

And changing of water is really not something necessary because we never had a pail of water in the shop till she put one in for no rhyme or reason.

She would make me fill the pail up with water, and at the end of the week, I am suppose to change it.

Can anyone understand why I am so frustrated?!

If it is something for the greater good, maybe I wouldn't complain as much.

But see, if I need something in the shop that requires me to change it weekly, and I am the only one using it, I will not ask her to bring it in and make her change it for me when she has no use for it at all.

For some reason, she sees me as an idiot.

I eventually did find out about her scheming little evil plan, hiding all the products. And I just started digging through all the drawers and everywhere else in the shop, and just started hanging every single piece I thought was nice enough to be displayed out.

And two days into my counterattack, she called me up at the shop, and scolded me, telling me not to hang out anymore clothes because there is no more space.

-_-

Yes, scolded, I am not exaggerating here.

Earlier this week on Monday, S was not feeling well, and I was told to take over the shop while she stay at home to rest, not telling me that she was on MC for 2 days.

I already had plans on Tuesday, but because I had to take over her shift, I pushed it back to Wednesday.

Tuesday evening, she called to tell me she was on MC for 2 days and that I have to come to work the next day.

EMPHASIS ON HAVE TO.

You do not tell someone you have to do something or go somewhere because it doesn't give the other person allowance to reject.

I could not push my events for Wednesday any further, because I was suppose to meet up Dorothea and pass to her my camera. And no, I am not blaming her, you ignorant boob.

That night, I told my boss that I could not work on Wednesday because I have something on and I asked if it was ok with her.

My boss asked if I could open shop for a while first, I said I could, and I apologized for skipping out halfway.

The next day, S called me up and scolded me, yes scolded. Saying that I should have told her that I could not work on Wednesday, so she could come down, powering through her sickness and pain, to open up the shop.

Look, I am not being paid extra for coming down the two days she took leave. I still get my basic hourly pay which is pretty much minimum wage. It is not like I will earn a lot more money if I turned up. I am paid hourly, so if I do not turn up for work for that couple of hours, I am not being paid at all.

It just frustrates me to no end that she, a full-timer, has been plotting and scheming to get me into trouble.

It will not be her first time anyway, she has succeeded in getting my mother to quit her job at this shop.

And I am very sure she wants me to leave as well so she can get her daughter to come work at this shop. Since it is near her school (her daughter is studying in the same school as me) and she doesn't have to do a lot because her mother dearest, S, would most likely be there and help her out by hanging out all the clothes, changing the water weekly, and getting some of her regular customers to go frequent the shop whenever her daughter is working.

I am just glad that I will be quitting soon, just so I do not have to face S and her pile of crap at the shop anymore.

I am very sure that just because you are not of a certain age in Singapore, you will not get the basic respect as a human being.

I remember being in Secondary 2, having the "time of my life" with the constant teasing, bullying, and living my life as a social outcast.

Turning to my form teacher for help has labelled me as being a drama queen in class when I requested for me to be put into another class.

But when this other girl come crying to her and ask to be put into another class, my form teacher sat down with her and talked to her till she calmed down.

Seriously people, what the fuck is this shit?!?!???!!

Seriously, if it isn't against the "social code of conduct" to yell at the adults just get a little respect here, I would do it.

I really really would.

I can only imagine yelling at my teacher would give me a direct route to suspension because the teacher has "lost all face" in front of other students.

And yelling at the full-timer will just give her more reason to get me out of the shop.

I HATE PEOPLE. I.HATE.PEOPLE! D<

I'll be baaack~

So I am back, with a new blogskin, and a whole bunch of shit to blog about. Whee! :D

But I am still feeling very lazy at the moment so uh, I'll procrastinate for a bit longer. :DD

Meanwhile, just enjoy this video.

This girl makes me depressed. ):

If I lose all the excess weight, I will chop my hair up, or even shave it into a mohawk.

): The world is so unfair.

Whoever who still reads this space...

It's the last lap to my Final Year Project.

Lots of shit had happen over the past few days. But I have lots to look forward to this Friday. :D

Like my Harry Potter books, me ordering more from Hot Topic.

And even considering getting a new camera, which brings me to my main topic for this post.

This is suppose to be a post filled with many photos, which I will be uploading later.

FYP period has made me... a little more stressed than I usually am. And in times of stress, I turn to shopping online. I have bought shitloads of things online, and I have burned a huge hole in my pocket. D:

1. Harry Potter Book Set, Hard Cover, Adult Illustration.
2. Limited Edition Cadillac Escalade Key Chain.
3. 2 pairs of leggings, which the order should have been cancelled LAST YEAR.
4. Face Mask.

Yes, I spent a lot. D:

But anyway, I am actually thinking of getting another camera. o_o Because cameras with flip screens are gooood. :D

All graduating students have to take part in a photo shoot, of which the photo will be on our presentation panels/website and shit.

And on the day of my photo shoot, I took my friend's camera and took more photos of myself... Because I am narcissistic like that. ._.

And it just made me want a flip-screen camera even more. DD:

Now I am considering the Canon G12, and Samsung EX-1.

I would want the G12 more because the other brand IS Samsung, and my last experience with my Samsung camera hasn't gone all that well.

Rah, why are cameras so expensive. ;A;

But anyway, here are the many photos I took of myself, and I must say, I take pride in being the fairest among my friends. :DD

Being fair-skinned is a good thing. :DD