:DD I GOT MY AWESOME SNEAKS TODAY! :DD

And I guess Hot Topic is not a huge fan of Strify... for covering his face up on my new Cinema Bizarre shirt. :DD

On a side note, I lost my Canon battery charger during my brother's ROM chalet. Yes, and I am damn pissed about it still. D

RANT POST.

:/

I wonder why, but I am feeling a little empty inside.

I feel sad that I am not like other bloggers who do advertorials all the time. I mean, no harm in extra income right?

I feel sad that... my Harajuku Lovers sneaks are pretty darn expensive. So far they are the most expensive sneaks I have ever bought. Even more expensive than my Awesome Sneaks #2.

I feel sad that I am still jobless, and printing out A2 sized stuff and having it mounted on boards has burnt a little hole in my pocket. AND I WAS SUPPOSE TO SAVE UP FOR MY ADIDAS SNEAKS!

I feel sad that I am awfully faaat. I mean, I am pleasantly plump... TSK I AM PLEASANTLY PLUMP OK! People are never nice to others who are plump. I experienced going into a clothes shop to have a sales assistant tell me "Oh you shouldn't buy that, you can't fit into it anyway, you're too fat." And today, probably because I am chubby, the people at the printing shop were pretty darn mean to me. :/ First getting ignored by most of them. Then I was not informed that my boards were done when I told them to call me up when it is done. And my boards were chucked at a corner, and it was thrown over to me when i went over to pick them up.

The boss was there by the way, watching them do all those. Sorry for not being skinny and pretty enough to deserve basic courtesy from you people.

Ah, the joy. I envy people, especially those who seem to have everything I want in their lives.

I apologize about the rant post. I am just feeling pretty empty inside for a moment. :/

I am thinking of getting a new handphone. :/

First I wanted the LG Lollipop phone, the one endorsed by Big Bang and 2ne1.



But, I kinda want a phone with a Qwerty keyboard. D: It looks cooler when you type on it. :/

The last I heard, Lollipop will be in Singapore around December, January. But now I am wondering if it is a phone worthy of my money or not. :/

Singtel is having this promotion going on. :/ The Nokia E71/E63 I wanted so badly is having a promotion going on. $98 and $0 respectively but I would have to extent my contract.
The joy... sigh.

Maybe I should stick to my Sony Ericsson phone for now, till it is time for me to change my phone next year. :/ Maybe by then the phones I want will be dirt cheap. :D

I have an awesome dad.

Somehow he knew I am broke to the max, so he came into my room asking me whether I have enough to spend and whether I need more money or not when he himself pretty much have trouble paying for everything in the family.

Not that we are THAT poor, just that we have bad debts running. :/ This is part and parcel of life. You are bound to take up loans that you will end up slogging your life away just to pay them up.

:/ I am broke to the max, but I feel bad for asking him for more money. So I just told him I will settle it myself.

My dad is awesome.

I shall just pray hard that the shop calls me up soon. Or that I will be able to gather enough courage to ask the shades shop at Far East.

Today, new shades,

new watch,

and an even emptier bank account. ):

I could not brace myself to ask about the part-time job at the shades shop. Mainly because the girls there are

1. skinny.
2. wear denim shorts and gladiators.
3. probably know each other real well.

And going there makes me feel depressed. D: Like first day of school.

I think I might start bringing food to school on my own. AND FUCK NO AM I GOING TO COOK FOR ANYONE ELSE. Unless you pay me to. Like $5 per meal.

:D I GOT MY SEQUINS TODAY! :DD
8 packets of sequins! :D All I need now are a good pair of headphones. :D
And I have to wait for my shoes to arrive at Comgateway. ROAR! :DD
My Harajuku Lovers shoes. :DD Like I said, Ebay is evil. I am thinking of getting a hair straightener there. D:


:/... I really never knew my hair stood out that brightly in the well-lit MRT station. :/

Oh, the class headed down to Dhoby and Raffles Xchange today for site visitation. -.- And apparently most shops are very sensitive to people taking photos of their shops. -.- That reminds me of that horrid shop in Vivo. Urgh.

Part of the class. And I am getting irritated already. -.- Second day of school and I am already mad irritated. -.-

Oh yes, I must add that this is just like the shophouse assignment EVEN THOUGH this is suppose to be an individual project. The shophouse project we did was a group thing, in groups of 10.

Sometimes I am really glad that I am in a large group because then people will be there when I need help. But then again, when I am in a large group, I feel like I am not contributing at all. Which is true, I probably did not contribute to anything today. Sigh.

I... probably am more of a liability than an asset. ;_;

I shall go research more on Pokemon. ;_;

I got my nails done today. D: And I realise I look like Lady Gaga when my hair is all straight and when I wear my F21 shades.

I am in a mad rush for things to be done. I wasted like, more than half a day on doing my nails. Gah!

D: I just found a whole bunch of crap I want to get online. -.-

Online shopping never stops for me. -.- And I hardly shop offline retail after I found online shopping.

IT.IS.TOTALLY.AWESOME!

But really bad for my bank account though. D:

School reopens tomorrow. I am nervous, yet excited at the same time. :/

I have no idea how am I going to face my lecturers with the shitty grades I got last term, but I still feel so excited about seeing my classmates again. :D

Rah, oh that reminds me. I think I might start bringing food to school. :/ SAVING MONEY FOR MY SHOES! :DD

;_; I have been into shoes lately. Like really into it. I wonder why. D: But all the little uh, teenagers look at my awesome sneakers in awe. :DD

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

The saddest thing that happened to me today...

I was playing Pokemon Diamond really happily. And I remembered to save the game every now and then.

This is usually what I will do :
Save game at random point, then carry on playing until I feel like saving it again.

The saddest thing is, I caught a Bronzor, my fire monkey, Meditite and Gyarados leveled up, I battled a few other strangers AND D: the battery went FLAT. D:

I forgot to save it at that point. ;_;

;_; I have to start all over again. ;_; GAH!

I guess no cornrows for me this time. :/

I shall stick to my mega watt bright red hair until it fades. :D
You have no idea how much I am sacrificing for this hair colour. ;_; I can only wash my hair once a day to prevent it from fading. ;_; ONCE A DAY! And I shower like 3 times a day... ?!

Yeah, it is a pretty colour, but it sucks that it keeps bleeding dye every time I wash my hair. RAH!

OMO OMO!
GYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABO~!

:DD
I got my hair done today! :D
Initially, I just wanted it to be dyed completely, without highlights. :/ But I ended up getting highlights instead.

IT IS PRETTY BRIGHT THOUGH. :DD

And I trimmed my hair a bit, at the salon where the Auntie fails at cutting my bangs nicely. Rah.



I shall look like a goon for the next week or so. I hope it grows a bit longer soon. D:

I went out today with Chu for awesome Mushroom Pot, and we went hovering around aimlessly. :/

Kinda aimlessly. I ended up buying a bag with what is left of my savings. D: I needed it, since I am practically destroying all my other sling bags. D: I happen to be a very violent girl.

Many happy things happened today. And it usually revolves around my Christmas present for myself this year, and Chu's Christmas present for herself this year. :D

:D Happy thoughts make a person real happy. :D

And I almost bought a Tamagotchi today. D:

On our way to the bus stop, I spotted this, real creepy looking building around town. D: And somehow it looks like the building in Berlin, the one that Cinema Bizarre went filming at for their I Came 2 Party video. ._.





:/

If you are reading this, you know who you are, hopefully. I am not angry anymore. I just do not wish to see or keep in contact with you. I know you are still... concern about me. :/ Thanks anyway.

Survivor : Toilet style.

Here are the long awaited photos of my tiny makeshift toilet. :/

AND GUESS WHAT! THE TOILETS ARE FINALLY DONE! :DD I CAN SCRUB MY BACK, EXFOLIATE MY FACE, AND CONDITION MY HAIR IN HOT HOT WATER NOW!

Ah the joy. :DD




Yeah, so during the entire construction process, my house is uh, being protected by giant sheets of plastic. :/ And for the past 2 weeks, I could not open the fridge.


And from far away, I can only look at my beloved frying pan. ;_;
$3.90 from Ikea. :D

Oh but the regulars still come and visit us every now and then.



I am not sure if this is a unladylike thing, but I really am not that afraid of cockroaches. :/
The other day at my friend's BBQ party, a beetle stuck itself to my shirt. :/ My friend saw and was like

"OMG WHAT IS THAT ON YOUR SHIRT ROO!"

I looked, and went,

"Oh, a beetle." *FLICK*

:/ IS IT VERY UNLADYLIKE?! DDD:

... Was I suppose to squeal and scream like what girls do in the anime. D:

D:

I have this urge to poop, but that means that I will have to go downstairs to the other makeshift toilet to poop. D:

I think my parents still think I am a really really young girl. :/ My mother still scolds me for staying out after 10pm. :/ And my dad talks to me as if I do not know anything.

Example, when we found out about the toilet renovations, we asked if we could go stay somewhere else first. My dad was against it, and this was what he told me,

"If you go to your friend's house to stay during the construction period, it will deny you the knowledge of how people renovate the place"

But this was what he told my brother,

"Right now if you go stay at your friend's house, you will end up incurring a favour debt. The next time that friend ask you for a favour, you cannot turn him down even if you do not wish to help."

D:

I bought another pair of shoes online. Not really buy. More like, I bid on Ebay for it.
:/ Actually I have no intentions of buying it, because this other bidder did that auto bid thing. :/ At that time, I was thinking that since I cannot get that pair of shoes, I might as well just make the other bidder pay more for it, MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

But now, I am the one who has to pay for it, because I overbid. :/

Gah, moral of the story, it does not pay to be evil ON EBAY.

... I think I will be getting a hair straightener from Ebay. :D

It has been a really really long day today. Sigh.

I went down to do my nails today, but did not manage to do so. :/ The teacher was not around, so my mother's friend just practiced a bit on me. Acrylic nails, and they hurt so much. D:

Are they even suppose to hurt that way. D: It is like tightening braces. D: My fingers~.

I went down to CineLeisure, and I bought 3 pairs of shades in the same design but different colour. D: I cannot help it. It is so pretty! It looks like the Dior shades that Big Bang and Bill have.



I headed down to Central, and thank God the shop was open. :D So I went to apply for the job there. :D And! The boss is a female this time. I asked first before applying. :D

Had sesame and dark chocolate ice cream/gelato, and it melted at the speed of light.

... ooo, and the boy working at Azabu Sabo is cute.

Ang Moh : I will have the $2.60 cup. Lychee flavour please.
Boy : You can pick another flavour.

There is this promotion going on from 11am - 5pm if I am not wrong. $2.60 per cup for 2 flavours. :D

Ang Moh : .... whaaaaat?

The music was playing real loudly I guess.

Boy : You can choose another flavour!

This time I was thinking whether I should help him by telling the Ang Moh what he was trying to say.
We both looked at each other, then back to the Ang Moh, then...

Boy : YOU CAN CHOOSE ANOTHER FLAVOUUUR! D:
Ang Moh : OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

HAHAHA, and he looks like Ken Miyake, the eyes.

:D I sat along the uh, Singapore River and watch people scream as they take the bungee ride.
And I snapped a real nice picture. :D
Oh, and the gelato melted so fast, it just dripped all over my hand and bag. D:

Oh, as I was hovering around the new Spotlight, I managed to cut myself. :/
And it bled a bit.
My new nails on one hand, temporary ones. I will be doing them again next Wednesday. :/
My left hand still have the French Gel thing. D:

PEACE!

I shall wear my rings like that to school someday.
:D If someone dares me to. :D

I realise that if you read my rings, it goes
Rock and Roll Rock Star Staaaar.
:D

I feel pretty in those pictures. :D
:D
I guess... the secret to looking pretty is eating a super filling meal. :D
It makes me happy. And makes me think I look pretty...
Wheeee~
:D:D:D:D

It is going to be a long day tomorrow.
:D

I will be meeting my mother's friend to touch up on my nails. :D EARLY IN THE MORNING, at 10am if I remember correctly, at Novena.

In the afternoon, I will be heading down to check out this shades sale that Chulien told me about today around town and to Spotlight to check sequins out. :D

Then I will be going down to check out the shop at Central, for like the gazillionth time. D: I shall pray hard that the shop is open when I head down.

Oh, and I will be collecting my vest tomorrow. :D At Jurong East. D:

Ahhhhh, long day tomorrow, and my sofa bed is surprisingly comfy. I guess I like firm mattresses. :/

... I think, I kinda know what it feels like to be a famous blogger already. Although I do not get to earn big bucks through having people getting me to do advertorials for them la.

:/ I get to do my nails for free, and I have readers tagging on my blog. :D

IT IS AWESOME. :D

I know I should not be so mean... but really,

I see the need to blog this out before I go crazy.

The boss of... the shop I used to work at said to me on the first day of work,

"If you want to quit, you need to give the company a week's notice first in your resignation letter."

I tendered my resignation last Monday, and all he said was,

"So fast, you want to quit ah. "

And nothing else.

Yesterday during work, at about 1.10pm, he called the shop up. At that time, I was the only one in the shop, with a few customers.
Dialogue in RED is me, because RED is the awesomest colour ever! :D
D - for that boss dude.
R - for the awesomest one.

D : "Jolene ah, ***** here. You eat already? Anyway, I haven't got down to asking you this, why you want to quit?"

R : "Haven't, it's still so early! Uh, I want to quit because of personal reasons."

Usually when someone says personal reasons, the asker will not probe any further. But clearly, he has no clue to what PERSONAL is.

D : "Personal reasons? Like what? Is it because you don't like working with Diana? Is it because of the job? Cannot be ma, your job is just to serve customers and cashiering duties only ma! Or is it the working hours? Why not you stay, and I let you work one day a week, like Sundays. At least you can have extra income ma."

R : "Like I said, it is personal. So why should I tell you?"

D : "But you quit, must have reason ma, so what is it? Is it because of your job or colleague? Or what is it?"

R : "It is PERSONAL! I see no need in telling you!"

D : "But why you want to quit?!"

R : "I SAID, it is due to PERSONAL REASONS! I do not wish to elaborate any further and I do not see the need to do so. I tendered my resignation, I gave you the one-week notice, so today will be my last day. And that is the end to that."

At this point, I am getting beyond irritated. I was THISCLOSE to spewing all sorts of vulgarities and demeaning words at him. Seriously, nobody should probe when someone says it is due to personal reasons.

D : "Is it because of colleagues or what? You are always welcome to come back if you ever want to work at XXX Connections again. So is it because of colleagues?"

R : "It is PERSONAL! Tsk, wait, there is a customer."

... At this point, he hung up on me. Whatev, he was getting on my nerves with all the probing anyway.

So yesterday, I succeeded in pissing him off by calling him like, 4 times. 2 out of the 4 times were consecutive calls. And since it was my last day, I panicked a bit when he scolded me and hung up at the last call in a very VERY rude manner, I have not even finish asking him what the customer has asked and he hung up just like that.

I told the customer what happened over the conversation I had with that dude on the phone, and that I am... pretty scared about it. She said, in a very girl power manner,

"There is no need for you to be scared. You are just doing your job."

I panicked, and I got upset about it. And obviously very very pissed. But now... looking at it. I guess I should be happy I pissed him off.

Revenge for asking so many times the same fucking question when I already said it is personal.

... I will not and cannot say to him that he, creeping me out, is the main reason why I tendered my resignation, apart from the low pay, ugly and smelly uniform that smells strangely like hair, and the constant spying through the CCTV.

And it is not in my nature to not bitch about it. I cannot not voice out my anger and frustration on my blog.

Childish, I may be. But for now it is the only way I vent my frustration, other than crying.

:D I GOT MYSELF ANOTHER READER Y'ALL!
:DD

READER, ! :D
Real happy about it. :D
I mean, it just warms the heart when anonymous people go "cheer up!" when you really really needed it.

:D Some pictures to update my uh, wordy blog. :D

Yesterday, I went to my friend's birthday party at Pasir Ris. We met up, hugged, ate and left. D: And I reached home not-so-late all thanks to my awesome brother. :D
I guess my mother calling him is a good indicator that I am still not home yet. :D

Today, I got 3 rings from Diva, real happy about it. But I spent like, $51 on them. D:




And I ate chicken rice at Far East Plaza. The only sad thing was, I did not manage to get any shades. ;_; I really wanted the mirrored aviators. I know, it is very common, BUT I REALLY WANT IT! ... And I could not gather up enough courage to apply for a job at the sunglasses shop.

I mean, it will be a great thing for me to work at a sunglasses shop! :D Imagine all the staff discounts I can get! :D And my shades empire will GROOOOW! :D

I bought a liquid eyeliner pen today, and came to realise that my eyelids are probably oily. Because it smudges on my eyelid, but not on my hand where I tested it out. :/

I guess I will be... starting a ring empire soon. :D With tons of rings to uh, go together with my sneakers and shades. :D

Random things that happened today.

I will take pictures of my bathrooms soon for the world to see. So for now, please bear with the wordy posts. :D

I went out for dinner today, and was on my way walking home. I decided that I needed to get glue. So I went to the store. :/
I came out of the store with a mini whiteboard, hair serum, hair treatment and body lotion. Still, no glue. :/

I cut through the shopping mall, I saw 3 young boys, probably around 12-13, sharing a cigarette. Young children these days.

My dad was telling me during dinner that somebody actually organised a Mid Autumn Festival celebration thingy for the little children. They will be going to either Clementi Woods or West Coast Park to play with lanterns and fire sparklers. Alas, it rained today. HAHAHAHA.

I am pretty darn glad that it is Saturday today, and that it is Sunday tomorrow. It is my last day of work, and I still have no found a new job. So much for my new plan. Gah.

Why mother, WHY?!

:/

While some nice people out there, including my brother, always try to make me feel better about my body, there is always this minority who like to put me down whenever humanely possible.

Right smack on top of the list, my mother.

You know how mothers always encourage you and stuff whenever you feel bad about yourself? My mother is never one to do that. She is always part of the pack of wolves who enjoy tearing me apart and watch me wallow in my own sorrow about being chubby.

My mother is pretty much insensitive. Just because someone flared at her, she will then turn to her two children and flare up at them, causing us a HUGE amount of problems.

Oh, and when you are really sad, she does not offer words of comfort or anything. She just simply rub in the fact that you are really not as great as her friends' children.

So much for "My mother is the one and only person I can turn to in times of need/trouble" or "I always know that I can fall into the warm, loving arms of my mother for comfort".

Pish posh, such things do not happen in my family.

Today is a real epic day.

I woke up at D: 7.25am just to use the toilet for the last time, before all the hacking starts. Sigh.

My mother hid the toothpaste, so I ended up not being able to brush my teeth at all. BEFORE YOU GO "EEEEEWW!", LET MY JUST SAY THAT I DID USE MOUTHWASH.

Had breakfast with my brother at the Mcdonalds near home, then off to work. Gah.

The boss was late, for like a good 10 minutes. I know I am in no position to complain about him being late, after all, he is the one who is paying me. Thing is, I do not get a single cent for staying back late.

So I practically just wasted 10 minutes of my life doing no pay work. AND he did not even apologize for coming in late. On top of that, he counted the money wrongly, so I had to count again, further wasting 5 minutes of my life.

Ah the joy. Grrrr.

Now my house is, pretty darn messy and dusty. My room is... full of clothes. :/ At least I got to shower. ... But I did not get to wash my face. D:

I wish the construction will end soon. ;_;

There are so many things I want to do.

But I just realise that I am running out of time. School is starting soon. D: Dread~.

I have to be up mad early tomorrow. Work starts at 10.30am, but I have to leave the house by 8am so that the workers can start work early. Sigh.

I hope the construction thing will end asap. ;_;

And they said change is healthy.

There was an earthquake yesterday. :/

Since I am more or less usually in my own little personal bubble, I did not feel the tremors till Kt called me.

"DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING?! MY OFFICE TABLE WAS SHAKING!"

Suddenly Singapore does not feel safe anymore.

Being a Singaporean (unfortunately), we used to pride ourselves as being a very safe country.

Safe, because you can go out in the middle of the night without having to fear of being robbed, raped or molested.
Safe, because no natural disasters really occur in our sunny little island.

So many things have happened on our little island. Many changes have inevitably occurred.

The temperature, the familiar faces around you. Everything changes. Singapore suddenly just does not feel that safe anymore.

We have haze, we are feeling the tremors from the earthquake that occurred in our neighbouring countries, more and more foreign workers are coming over to Singapore. Ah the joy.

What ever happened to the Singapore I used to know?

That being said, many people are still stuck under the rubble right now as I blog this out. It is during times like this that makes me feel real grateful that I am in Singapore.