Groupie... heh.

Yesterday marked the first day of me being a groupie.

I went down to Changi Airport to chase after F.cuz, and to see After School. And I can't believe how crazy I actually became when I saw Kan up close. ROAR!

Today, I went down to IMM, in hopes of passing maybe a Post-It to Kan with my contact details, yes, I am crazy that way.

But it turns out, they were not coming or going off from the area I had parked myself at with my friend. Their van did go pass us, and I think I saw Jinon starring back at me as I starred at the van with the impossibly black glass.

A little thing that made me quite happy was the fact that this J-rock group called LM.C was standing at area where I was at, and didn't budge at all. :D

And the cuter of the two, who was sucking on a lollipop, waved and said bye when we waved and said bye to him. :D

Lollipops seem to be his thing.

F.cuz was a sad disappointment. I hope to meet him tomorrow outside his hotel after the Lee Min Ho meet and greet.

Today's stalking was... awesome, despite not being able to meet Kan up close and handing him my blue Post-It, which he will probably throw anyway.

I went home thinking about what had happened today, and I was glad I came.

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For that 2 hours, all I could do was giggle about meeting F.Cuz, then sigh about them not alighting at our area, then gushing over the fact that Maya from LM.C, the cuter one like I said, waved and said bye to us.

For that 2 hours, that was all I could think about. And it made me not worry about anything else. Like my school work, my grades, how am I going to apply for university in Korea, and some other stupid things like I want to buy brushes, but I can't buy till I get my pay.

Tomorrow will be the last time I call myself a groupie, I know Tokio Hotel is coming this Tuesday, probably with the Wonder Girls and Katy Perry because they are all coming down from MTV World Stage in KL.

I don't think I have the energy to continue doing that.

Shopping... for the day?

Today, or rather, yesterday, I went for another interview at a modelling agency.

The very same one that I went to 5 years ago.

They still have the chairs from 5 years back, but the location and the interior and exterior has totally changed. And the price of their composite card/portfolio has obviously increased, as usual, but it's slightly lesser than the previous one.

(It's $470 for 3 outfit changes for this one, and $690 for 5 outfit changes for the previous one.)

Thing is, despite knowing that it's more or less a scam, I still am tempted to join that company. Must be the compliments they throw at me...

I was told to bring a photo of myself, which I did show nearing the end of the interview.

And the lady, probably was just being nice, said that I have a very nice face shape (Ohohoho!) and that if I were to do my composite card/portfolio, I should totally do a wild theme, and she said that I will have to bring my sunglasses along for it.

Well, seeing that I have a collection of them, I guess it made me happy that someone actually... appreciates it, in a way.

So that was the photo I brought along.

Obviously I photoshopped it. How else will the photo look so bright.

I went back after my interview with the agency.

(I was given a few days to think about it, as usual.)

I stopped by a bookstore on my way back because I was looking for a particular book. I found it, bought it, and I totally regretted it.

This is the book I bought : Korean for Dummies.

Because I am so ready to go to Korea and become a popstar. Ohohoho!

But seriously, I have intentions of going to Korea to study Liberal Arts in German language/literature.

Ironic, I know that I am going to Korea to learn German when I have no clue on how to read, speak or write in any of those languages at all.

But I bought it anyway, hoping that I will be able to pick up Korean before I actually head down to apply for the university, of which I am still thinking because I know my family is not actually able to afford it...?

Korea is the cheapest I can find. $4-5000 for a semester or a school year is pretty cheap when you compare it to Australia, which is about $30 000. Singapore Dollars, that is.

But to apply for a university in Korea as an international student, you will have to take a Korean Proficiency test, of which you have to pass 5 of the 6 levels, or else they will either limit the modules you can take, or might just reject you, I think.

So I am here, trying to learn Korean with my dying will. And I thought this Korean for Dummies book will be useful.

But turns out, you don't get to learn Hangul with this book.

(Hangul, the writing part. You learn how to speak and enunciate with this book.)

So pretty much, this was a waste of money. $50 for the book, I feel the pain in my pocket. I could have gotten the German one for slightly lesser. :/ Oh well, I am going to make the best of it, and attempt to learn Korean soon.

There are a few things I just wanted to blog it out, just so it gets into my head a bit.

I have been missing school/turning up late for class for the past few days. D:

It is not something I am proud of, especially since I was known to be one of the few who turns up the earliest for class back in my first and second year of school.

I think I have become a lot less interested in the course I am taking, because right now all I want to do is get over and be done with Interior Design.

I roll out of bed at the time my class starts, and will not pop into class until a good hour or two has passed.

I love design, but I think I just hate my course. :/

It's been a while.

Hi there,

It has been a while, nearly 3 days in fact.

A little update, my life has become slightly better. I no longer fear getting fired during work. And I am finally on track with my work. Yay me? :D

A little thing I wanted to share... Brainwash, if people would say.

I am never a very religious person. I did go to church when I was younger, and I do believe that God exists. I just never wanted to commit myself to God, because well, I have to socialise with the fake people in church.

Yes, even in church, there are still cliques, Popular vs the Not-so Popular. And I hated that, because soon it will be like high school, instead of a place where you go and give thanks and praise the Lord for everything he has done for you. You will start to dread going, just like I did.

I still pray, and I still believe in His existence.

And all I can say is, praying really does help.

I forgotten when was the last time I prayed to him about something.

It was only when I started worrying about getting fired, then I thought of it. ... And also because there's a new Christian bookstore that had just open at West Coast Plaza.

Just wanted to share.

If you are a Christian who had stopped praying, maybe it's time for you to start again. It really does work wonders. (:

And no, hell no, I am not going back to a church full of fake people.

Photo!

I look older... That's why. D: Omg. D:

In times of stress and anxiety...

I was preparing to go to bed, but I decided to play around with my camera instead.

... Oooo, rhyme-y words.

But yeah, my week, like I said, was not a great one.

I am lagging behind in school work, and I more or less have decided that I hate those concept projects that the school has planned for us.

Not that I think that it's not of any use to me.

I just hate that it's so conceptualised that it's making everything so hard to visualise.

I have more or less decided that I do not want to have anything to do with Interior Design after graduating... That is if I manage to graduate next year and not retain.

I don't mind doing it freelance, of course, with a team of people. D: Not by myself. D:

I don't even mind doing AutoCAD right now. Or do AutoCAD for the rest of my life.

(I just realise that there are only that many commands you can use on AutoCAD. The rest depends on your ability to think of the shortest way possible to draw out what you want.)

Liberal arts, I want to study you now. ;A;

I just realise how fast time has passed.

So fast that it made me really scared.

I can't stand the thought of not having some people in my life after graduation. I find it really horrible, the thought of working after graduation. I hate the idea of having to go into society, and not have awesome hair or wear awesome clothes, and spend a lot more money because you get so stressed that retail therapy is the best way to relieve stress within a short period of time.

I am extremely stressed with this current project, and I really do not want to retain.

(Sorry, I am ranting this.)

I have made it a point to sing at the top of my lungs when nobody is at home when I am stressed instead of shopping online, like I did back then to relieve stress.

And right now, I can feel my vocal chords becoming extremely thin and dry and that they might just snap anything soon. D:

I really have no idea how to describe vocal chords. But yeah, I think I sang/yelled so much at home that it's actually hurting my throat.

... So you can probably tell how stressed I am.

Either that or I am just feeling super emotional. It happens every year around the same time, which is around my birthday. :/

This year was suppose to be a good year. It is a year I am suppose to work hard towards my dreams and aim to graduate without a that-bad GPA.

Part one of it is nearly complete.

Part two is a bitch.

Anyway, DAI! PLEASE TEACH ME KOREAN! D:

I started playing with my camera again, just before I went online and decide that I should post them up because I have nothing better to do with my life, other than spending time stressing out on the models.

A few random shots I took from my dresser/vanity thingy.

I realise I really love it when it auto-flashes. The picture comes out super nice.

Yet, it's a bitch to get it to auto-flash on its own.

When you turn on your flash, the photos that come out of it is super harsh, the lighting. D:

Auto-flash somehow turns out better. D:

... But then again, when all else fails, there's always Photoshop.

Just a random thought.

Have you ever felt...

Like you could just disappear for a week or two and nobody will realise your existence until you appear on the headline news that you met with an accident.

Like you were all alone, even when you are in a room full of people.

That you have so much to say, but know that there's nobody out there you can turn to somehow.

That even though you are always laughing and cracking lame jokes, inside, you are nothing like that?

I'm just wondering.

I am not that depressed yet.

This week hasn't been the best week I ever had.

I am pretty behind on school work, and I need to practice a lot more.

Story of my life, I will get used to it somehow.

As a consolation, I randomly took photos of my room using my mini tripod I got for free. It really is not that awesome, but it was still fun to play with it, I promise. :D

My 2pm calendar which I totally regret buying, and the Macdonalds glass I got for free today.

Stuff on my study table. :/

Books I have on my study table.

My study table... Hahahaha. I love my cork boards.

My bed and posters, which I will be tearing down soon.

Like I said, it hasn't been the best of weeks, so I apologize for not giving a proper update to this blog of mine. :/

It's a photo spam post! :D

It's just one of the days where I have tons to show, but have nothing much to update the world about.

Here's a little update on my birthday wishlist.

Sugarpill Palettes ;

Sweetheart

And Burning Heart.

AWESOME LIMECRIME LIPSTICKS :D

In No She Didn't, My Beautiful Rocket, Great Pink Planet, Centrifuchsia and Countessa.

(Yes those are the names/shade the lipsticks are.)

And a Fujifilm Instax Mini 25 in Orange.

Or white.

Or even a Mini 7s will work for me.

I have been loving my hair a bit lately. :D

I pin my fringe back up into a poofy-looking bun. :D and it's pretty. :D

Ah Mun and her round fingers made a cameo while taking a photo of my awesome hair.

OMG! D:

THAT LITTLE BOY HAVE SUCH ROUND FINGERS :D

Credits to : MichaelAranda

OH.MY.GOSH.

I just found out that Tokio Hotel is coming to Singapore.

Like, I know they might be coming to Singapore, stopping over after/before their MTV World Stage performance in KL.

BUT WHY, OH MY GOSH, WHY ARE THEY COMING TO SINGAPORE FOR!?

Roar!

As a Tokio Hotel fan, I should be immensely happy that they are coming, but I am not.

Why, you ask?

Because if they come, there's a high possibility that Tom might have more groupie sex with all the little ah lians in Singapore.

With their stick-thin arms and legs, and a whiny voice, oh my goodness, I can totally imagine how ecstatic he'll be when he sees them. ;A;

Dear Tom,

until the day I lose weight and become drop-dead gorgeous, please stop coming over to Singapore.

I will not chase or stalk after you until I become drop-dead gorgeous... so I will be able to attract you when our eyes meet. Ohohohoho!

Ok, I am done being an obsessed, creepy and crazy fangirl who secretly dreams of Tom marrying her someday. ;A;

ONE CAN DREAM OK!

STOP BURSTING MY BUBBLE!

My birthday wishlist, because I am shallow like that.

The big TWO-O is in less than a month's time and I have decided to make a birthday wishlist.

I don't get expensively great presents every year, but I still decide to make the list anyway. We all want what we can't have.

It makes me happier knowing there's something out there I can't have. /sarcasm

Ipod Touch.

I know Chulien is going to roll her eyes as she sees this on my list because I have been whining about getting one for the longest time.

Either JVC Everio HM200

Or the Samsung C20

Actually any awesome camcorder with Auto-Focus works for me.

Some bottles of Special Effects hair dye. :D

But money works for me as well.

I am dreading the day I hit 20, it doesn't make it less painful to know that it's just going to be any other day and that I am already one step closer to death.

That's the joy of life, isn't it.

It was fun while it lasted.

Taken at the airport.

I just sent a friend back to Australia yesterday. She came back during her winter break for 2 weeks.

Yeah, winter in June/July. Weird place, Australia is.

So within 2 weeks, I am pleased to say that we met up 2 times. :D

That's a record for someone who I never bothered meeting up in the past, 2-3 years before she flew off and came back to Singapore.

I feel a need to do a post up on this, which is something I am not very much into because I hate writing out stupid posts about stuff like...

"This is where I went!"

"This is what I bought!"

"This is what I ate!"

I know blogs like that make up 80% of the blogosphere and most of the blogs that have tons of hits are part of the 80%.

But because this is a ... rather significant event, I just felt that I should blog this out. Hahaha, in case one day I ever lose my memory, this blog will remind me of stuff.

So, our first meetup since she returned was on a Friday, and she got lost on the train. Taking from the wrong side of the station, she only realised when the person announced the name of the next station.

Tourist, she totally forgot how to navigate around Singapore anymore. Hahaha!

We met up, had sushi buffet together in a long long time. And we watched Despicable Me. :D

Oh, then we met up with Chulien at Vivo and went shopping and had Carl's Jr because Marche was full of people during dinner time on a Friday night.

PHOTO SPAM!

Because that is how much I love my JS Adidas shoes. :D

On our second meetup was on a Thursday, the day before she flew off. Her navigation skills were not as bad. At least she can still find her way around the shopping mall.

Our second meetup was short, and consisted of a sushi buffet at Sakae Sushi because Chulien and I are such slowpokes that we missed the lunch buffet timing, and a round at the neoprint shop. :D

Ah neoprints... Brings back such fond memories.

But this meetup was a short short one because she has a dinner date with her other friends from secondary school, which from what she said was not exactly the best event that occurred in her 2 weeks in Singapore.

Friday, which was yesterday, I went and sent her off at the airport alone because Chulien had school till 6, which she could still have made it in time if she wanted to. ROAR! D:

As a parting gift... Sort of, I bought her the dress she wanted from Forever 21, because that is how awesome I am.

I didn't bother taking out the price tag, and I mentioned on the paper bag that its the $47 dress, because she already know the price. -_- I see no point in taking the price tag out.

Apart from that dress, I gave her my favourite pair of wayfarers in red and yellow.

Please take good care of it. ;A;

SEE! YELLOW!

And I used a piece of newspaper to wrap her present because she wrapped mine in a piece of newspaper too. HAHAHA!

Eh, at least they have Super Junior on it.

And a "loveletter", as she would call it. -_-

But I went alone, and it was awkward because her dad and brother ended up treating me to a meal at Popeyes and I went back with her mother. D:

Her dad and brother offered to send me back, but it was just weird yo, WEIRD! But yeah, I went back with her mother, and I met on the train, 2 of the most ill-bred people in the world.

A mother went rushing to a seat, even after seeing that the person offered it to an elderly.

And her son kept kicking me and didn't apologize for it. When you hit someone, unintentionally, you should at least apologize for it. And when I stood up to alight, her son and her rushed to snatch my seat, and her son pushed me away with his dying will even before I managed to walk to the door.

People like you are a serious disgrace to Singapore. Argh.

To make matters worse, I still can't find my Power Rangers shirt. ROAR!