ROAR!
>:3
char's a meanpoooop.
and there's evidence of it!
>:3 RAH.

today's fieldtrip was blaaaaaah.
some interesting things to note :

• singaporeans do actually do graffiti.
• there's a gay bar at ann siang hill.
• ... and yong shenq was the one who identified it.
• the girls in my class get really excited over metal doors that reflect you in a weird way.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

>_< I THINK I LIKE MY EYECANDY ALL OVER AGAIN.
even though i hate him from being such an unstable guy, i think i am a more unstable person than he is.

i need to get a life, one that is not revolving around him.

oh yes, im going for the chalet.
still not exactly that excited about it.
what if nobody plays with meeeeee.
;_;

i was looking through my friendster profile today.
and i realise how much i have changed over the years.

this is me when i was in sec 3.


... i couldnt really find any decent picture of me in sec 4.

and this was late last year to early this year, just before i entered poly.




and this is the question that was in my head.

... what in the world happened to me?!
D:

roar!

LIST OF STUFF THAT HAPPENED WHEN I TURNED 18

1. i was listening to hannah montana the very second i turned 18.
2. my mum decided to cook in the end, omg.
3. dawn and my friend from sp wished me happy birthday WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY before it was my birthday.
4. i was talking to char for like, almost the entire day.
5. i believe that im aging a little too fast, im an old fart already. omg.
6. char was trying to cheer me up so damn badly.
7. everytime i talk to char, i will somehow always direct the topic to my eyecandy.
8. grass said im not old, im just old enough to buy sex toys and watch m18 moovies.
9. char was the last person i talked to before i went to bed, and she said "hope you dream of you ec tonight."
10. i watched project runway 4 the entire day, and i have yet to complete the entire season till now.

roar, i have completed my model!
:D i have this HUUUUUUUGE sense of accomplishment today.

wore my pajamas pants and my huge white "leave me alone" shirt to school.
obviously the world stared, and my self esteem kinda went down.
roaaar! until dawn told me that her best friend thinks im damn cool.
(OF COURSEEEE!)
cool people wear pajamas pants to school, yo!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

something happened today.
was initially very very very happy.
then uh, i slowly became a little emo.
and i have to say that i kinda lost feelings for my eye candy.
it's a really sad thing. roaar!
but then again, i might like him all over again.
D: im such a complicated person, gah.

HAHAHAHA! mooooore peekchars later.
photobucket is a meaaaaanpoop.

1000 stars are passing by.

birthday was lame.
i spent the entire day watching project runway at home.

but today, IT WAS AWESOME.
:D
met dawn in the morning, she was laaaate.
D: but i got presents!
:D LOADS OF GUMMY AND A COOKIE MONSTAR BALLOOON.
:D

went to school, and -i think- yiliang wanted to smack me eighteen times.
roaaar, stupid birthday traditions.
it's not so fun now that the joke's on me.

hahaha, VALEWEE cameeee.
and i got my first cakeeeeee.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
it was tinyyyyy, so it's meant for just meeeeee.
FOR ME, MYSELF AND I ONLYYY.
:D

the bunch of people that was in the studio sang the birthday song for me.
:D i dont really remember who was in there.
i remember ah mun, valewee, yiliang and liming was there.
i think allen, henry, daryl and ashraf was in there too.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

after that, i tried to complete my model with my dying will.
then i left for sushi with stefu, nicole and vic.
:D

after sushi, stefu bought me another cake.
D:
and i think im going to eat it tomorrow.
i'll bring it to school if i dont have the time to eat that in the morning.

today was awesome.
my class singing the birthday song for me, it's a first.
roaaar.
:D

peekchars tomorrow, when i bring my labtop to school tomorrow.
there's something wrong with my bluetooth on vista.
roaaar.

8 more minutes, and i'll be old.
):

just a little rant post.

after thinking, about the same topic, over and over and over.
i honestly think i live a very pathetic life.
im 17 going on 18, single (not that i really care, seriously), i lost faith in this stupid and rather annoying thing called love and in religion and im friendless (more or less).

i have lost my best friends in life,
my friends and i, have drifted apart quite some time ago.
even though we are on talking terms, it will be.. quite uncomfortable for me to go out with them now.
i have no idea why, but it feels that way.

i just stopped hanging out with everyone.
in fact, i think i was the one who severed all ties with them.
not that i want to, i just dont like taking the initiative to talk to people sometimes.

i really want my life to change.
making friends will be a good start.

it's always during birthdays where you actually sit down and reflect on what you have done during your entire life on Earth.
and so far, the only thing im proud to say i have acheived.. is probably wearing braces for like 6 years, and that, is not something you can actually be proud of.

i guess i'll be emo-ing for the next few days or so.
i think i will need mini MnMs again.

sometimes i really wish i didnt exist.
maybe then it wouldnt hurt so much to live.