Too much of something...

I recently made a move.

A decision that might cause me to wonder for the next 3 months, whether what I did was right or wrong, and whether it was a wise decision to make that move.

I am in a happier place right now, but somehow I feel that this peace is only temporary. A bigger battle is out there waiting for me, just that I am unaware of.

I am glad justice is served, but at tve same time, I cannot help but wonder and feel concerned about the casualties of this... war I speak of.

Underhanded methods were used, not by me, just to get back on me because that person felt wrongly accused.

Let's just say it backfired and it caused her to be in more shit than she was in before she decided to blab out everything.

This move I made is bound to have its consequences.

Was it the wisest thing to do, that I have no idea. But I have people telling me that everything is alright, and that I am not at fault for this... Awkward situation to happen.

I can't help but feel like a selfish brat, doing everything as I please because everything is not going my way, or going well at all.

While I feel safe there, I can't help but worry...

After her, will there be another...?

You used to get into your fishnets...

I'm not sure if it's because I have started working...

Because I seem to have lost count of days and dates.

Everyday is the same routine, waking up at 6-ish, heading off to work at 7-ish.

Reaching my workplace at 8.30am, and answering phone calls and emails till 5.30pm.

I will either reach home at 6.30-ish, or I would meet up certain people for dinner.

Reach home at 10-ish, shower and go off to bed.

I kinda miss waking up to nothingness.

I kinda miss deciding what time I should go to bed.

And I really miss waking up naturally in the middle of the day.

This Lunar New Year has been... quite weird.

For the first time ever, I am actually thankful for this holiday.

It has been a while since I woke up at 1pm in the afternoon.

): I miss being a kid.

New hair!!

New hair, same face with crappy skin.

I see this year is going to be a great one. /sarcasm

Cupcake!

Because I'm working somewhere related to cakes and baking.

:D
Got this fudge cupcake with mint icing thingy a while back, although the photo doesnt do it any justice.

It's sparkly in real life. :D

Female of little tears.

I'm a leo, not surprisingly.

And I find it hard to cry in public, or share the many things I do not wish for anyone to know about.

Maybe it's my pride, or the way i was being raised. I learn that crying to get what you want is deemed as weak, and a one-trick pony who uses her ability to cry on cue as a form of blackmail to get things done her way.

I feel slightly inspired to blog about this only because many things have happened recently at work, unpleasant things that I do not wish to go into detail.

Many things have changed since I've started work. Relationships between co-workers, the general impression my co-workers have of me, etc.
And did I mention that I am still on probation?!

I wonder if I should carry on with this job, because it no longer seems fun, and in general, I feel that things have changed so much that it suffocates me just thinking about me.

I consider myself as a rather straightforward person, and would rather have the person come up and tell me in my face what the hell am I doing wrong or have done wrong.

If anyone is expecting me to cry, don't expect to see tears coming from me. I am not that weak girl that everyone thinks I am or should be.

Sometimes, it is better to not invest your feelings and time into people or things that you know will end up turning against you in future.