Photo!

I mounted a bunch of pictures on a piece of black mounting board and stuck it on my wall. :D

My wall is finally looking... interesting. :D

Collecting money later, I hope I dont spend it on something stupid... D:

Tokio Hotel Eon5.

Felt the need to show off my awesome bun :D

While waiting for F.Cuz and LM.C to appear outside the hotel, I made friends with this really nice girl name Eka, and she has tickets to Entertainment on 5 for both Tokio Hotel and Katy Perry.

Just the day before Dorothea and I went stalking the Korean celebrities, she had found the twitter account to Eon5 and they said that whoever is interested in attending the interview for Tokio Hotel, just email them and they will respond within 3 days.

BUT, 3 days from then was the actual recording. I don’t have the time and heart to wait for them to tell me on the actual day that I got the tickets. It was too much to handle.

So anyway...

Tokio Hotel’s interview was scheduled in the evening, whereas Katy Perry’s was scheduled in the morning. And Eka only wanted to attend the Katy Perry segment, so I asked her nicely if she had any tickets to Tokio Hotel to spare because I thought I had no chance of getting them.

And on the day of the interview, instead of giving me the one she has, she ended up giving me 2. :D THANKS EKA, even though you are probably never going to read this.

And Eon5 emailed me just an hour after I got back from meeting Eka in town to collect the tickets from her.

Suddenly, from I-AM-GOING-TO-SEE-TOKIO-HOTEL-ALONE, it became I-CAN-BRING-2-OTHER-FRIENDS-ALONG!

And nobody other than me was interested in meeting Tokio Hotel. ROAR!

I had to beg Ah Mun like that so she will go with me.

Fine, it was a failed attempt in copying Puss In Boots. :/ BUT STILL!

I managed to drag her along with me. :D

And she said it was her job to keep me from going too crazy and rush up to grab Tom and tell him that I am his one true love.

Hahahaha!

So we cabbed down to Mediacorp.

The event started at 7.30pm, we headed down at 4pm. It’s never too early to start queuing up.

We ended up waiting outside the gate where it opens and leads out to the studio.

But being lazy and a total typical Singaporean, I couldn’t take the heat and went inside the lobby to sit down and enjoy some air con while I could. And I took this time to write a note to Tom, in hopes of giving it to him when I get to see him later at the interview.

CAN YOU FEEL MY HEARTBEAT, TOM!

(I am liking my makeup in that photo very much. :D)

Ah Mun said I cannot be let in because I am 5 and children under 6 will not be admitted.

Nice girl I met there, who gets lots of news and updates her twitter and tumblr with lots of Tokio Hotel stuff.

:D SHE SAID I LOOK MORE LIKE 17 THAN THE 20 I SAID I AM. :D

Ok, the people there were being naggy and whiny about us fans. I got to sit somewhere pretty close to where Tokio Hotel was.

Lots of photos, just look at them!

The event started at 7.30-ish pm, and it ended at 8pm on the dot.

It was both annoying yet exciting at the same time.

Exciting, because I got to see my husband in flesh! :D

Annoying, because I waited nearly 4 hours and all I got was half an hour of him?! That’s not very fair, people.

Not to mention, I did not get to pass him my love-letter... ROAR!

Oh, I had forgot to mention, I actually met some really really really nice people there.

As I had said above, I was “resting” in the lobby because I am fat and lazy and cannot survive in Singapore without air conditioning.

I had went to the toilet, and Ah Mun came running in with a panic-y look on her face because the group of girls who was at the lobby with me went out. ALL.OF.THEM.

And when I went out, I found out that the queue has extended from the gate where we once were, to the end of the stairs. D:

I was being a good citizen, so I didn’t cut queue or push my way through claiming that I was there first. Instead, I stood at the end of the line like what other people should do instead of cutting queue.

When we first stood outside the gate to wait, I kinda started talking to a few girls there. THIS IS WHAT YOU CALL FAN-GIRL BONDING.

So when I was standing behind, feeling a little depressed because I was fat and lazy and needed the air conditioning, one of the girls, Sarah saw me because she was walking back to look for her friend.

She said “Why are you so far back!”

And then she offered to let me cut queue and stand with them at the front of the line because she said I was early anyway and it would be really sad to see me come so early but stand so far back.

Her friends agreed to it too, so Ah Mun and I managed to cut in and get some really awesome seats. :D

So to Sarah, Megan, Masturah, Jessalyn(sp?) and a few other girls I met at the studio, THANK YOU! :D

And they were suppose to add me on Facebook... but I guess they couldn’t find me. D:

My week of stalking... kinda.

One particular week, I spent the last few days of the week and the weekend on chasing after celebrities who were in Singapore for Singfest and the Sundown Festival.

Obviously it was a waste of my time, judging from the older posts I have below that I am no longer living in the safe, little bubble I call my imagination.

It first started with chasing them from the airport, the Korean ones, F.Cuz and After School.

That was when Kan waved at me :DD and Dorothea mentioned that I take in a lot in the 3 minutes I saw Kan because I remembered that he was wearing a black tank top, white formal shirt, navy blue jeans, silver hi-tops with black laces, and was carrying a beige messenger bag with black straps.

Oh and he was wearing a fedora too. :D

No pictures because the ones taken were blurry.

Oh and After School came out before them. Bekah took a photo of us, Gahi looked really short because the rest were in 4-5 inch heels and nobody really noticed UEE’s presence.

Obviously when it comes to After School, this was what everyone could say when they spotted them

“OMG I SEE A BUNCH OF LONG LEGS!!!!!”

That, I have a few photos of.

Credits to Dorothea who took them.

The day after, we met up at IMM to uh, stalk them? From the back door where the event was held.

My phone, being crazy that day, went out of battery just before I could find out where Dorothea was waiting for me at, and I had to find a power point somewhere to charge my phone for that mere 2 minutes. D:

It was crazy la. I was waiting at the taxi stand, she wasn’t there. I was expecting her to be somewhere else, but yet was half-hoping that she’ll turn up at the taxi stand. D:

Note to self : Charge phone and camera battery to MAX the day before stalking. And DO NOT use the internet on the phone, it just uses up the battery a lot. Oh yes, and do not lend your phone to your friends whom you know have itchy fingers. They might go online and waste your battery.

So anyway, we parked ourselves at what was supposed to be the strategic spot; the only entrance up to where the event was supposed to be held at.

Alas, the security guards were being a bitch, not really all of them. Just this particular one who was all enthusiastic and ecstatic when she found out that they needed one more person upstairs with the security, but super bitchy and selfish when it comes to sharing information.

Oh, and did I mention that Dorothea’s good friend came along too? :D

I have no idea how to spell her name, but she’s really nice AND she loves Arashi AND HER FAVOURITE MEMBER IS OHNO.

And she loves/likes BIGBANG and she digs up secrets on 2ne1.

Ah, where has she been my entire life? Hahaha!

The stalking that day was a fruitless one, not only did we not get to see F.Cuz, we didn’t even get to take a photo of the only band we saw, which was LM.C. (MAYA, I LOVE YOU!)

Well, I kinda saw F.Cuz... I think.

I saw a guy who resembled Jinon starring out the window and at me. I obviously stared back because I couldn’t make out who it was.

And Maya waved and said bye to us in his deep deep voice. :D

At least that was some sort of consolation. :/

Lee Minho Meet & Greet.

Ok, I admit I have been feeling extremely lazy and have been pushing to do these blog updates to the very bottom of my to-do list.

But as the list becomes longer, I can almost hear it shouting out to me “ROO, UPDATE YOUR BLOG~”.

D:

So these stalker-like posts will be done in two parts.

Meaning, LMH Part 1 and 2, Tokio Hotel Part 1 and 2 etc. Unless there is nothing much I can say about the event...

Hahaha, truth be told, I actually do enjoy attending these events. Lots of credit goes to my Narsha-lookalike friend who has gotten some awesome free media passes for events like these.

... I shall stop rambling and get started on the posts. D:

It was a bright and sunny Saturday for the Lee Min Ho meet and greet.

I woke up and went to meet Dorothea with no breakfast in my tummy. ):

My dad went to get breakfast a little later than usual, thus a long queue, and I was already running late. D: I had to take a cab to Marina Bay Sands out of desperation.

Desperate times call for desperate measures. If there is one thing I really hate, it has to be cabbing to a place when the train would do perfectly fine in getting you to your destination.

I get carsick that’s why...

So like I said, I went to meet Dorothea, and we got some food. Wheee~.

Headed back up to the event area and went outside to take photos a bit. :/

AND I WAS SO NEAR KAN! >_< ... Like near their hotel... Hahaha!

My hair was looking awesome in the sun. :D

I miss my blond hair though ...

So I had written a note for Kan because we had decided to go wait at Marina Mandarin for the F.Cuz boys and L.MC... and After School, but I don’t really like After School...

On to the event...

The host was a Radio DJ... who can’t speak/pronounce Korean for nuts and sounded pretty weird trying to get us to hurry up in Korean.

And... I know this is not her fault, but she is always in the way when I take photos. I doubt anyone else felt the same other than me... :/

I took a lot more photos than those I show here...

But my compact camera is not exactly awesome DSLR quality. So heh, here are just some shots that are decent enough for me to post up.

At the end of the event, I guess I came out as a Lee Min Ho fan.

Kinda.

If perfection is what you like, then it probably is Lee Min Ho.

That dude has no bad angles and he’s actually pretty charming in a way.

I am not exactly a HUGE fan of Lee Min Ho, and actually I am pretty happy that I am not a fan of Lee Min Ho till I went for the event because you go in with no expectations of this celebrity.

Rather than chasing a celebrity whom you have high hopes for,

*coughKANcough*

It actually has adverse effects because suddenly that celebrity you thought you like actually is nothing like they portray themselves to be on tv.

I am very much still alive.

I finally bought the bag I wanted.

I know I havent been posting up lately...

Soon la, soon. Let me finish up with some stuff I have to do first.

Short short update.

JUST A SHORT SHORT UPDATE. ):

I have been feeling absolutely lazy for the past few days.

My project is nowhere near complete, and I am still working during the weekends, yay me. -_-

This short update to tell you that I am very much still alive, and I have a few interesting updates to do when I am finally free from my project.

I haven't even made a video in a week, and it's my birthday soon. ;_;

So here are the posts I will be doing up soon, so till then, please wait for me. D:

1. Lee Min Ho Meet and Greet session.
2. F.Cuz and After School in Singapore with lots of bad photos.
3. Tokio Hotel on Entertainment on 5.
4. My birthday.

I wish that damn fake bubble would burst.

I guess my bubble has officially been burst.

I saw Tokio Hotel today. Hell they all looked like walking sculptures. The perfection...

I wonder what it must be like to be European, to have such awesome features, to be from a land where everyone looks like a supermodel.

But yes, despite it being all awesome, seeing Tokio Hotel, F.Cuz, After School, Sug, Lee Min Ho and LM.C for the past few days, instead of being happy, I am in fact feeling extremely depressed.

There's something about celebrities.

You see them on covers, you see them on the internet, you watch them on TV and you hear about their news on the radio.

This had actually created an illusion, a barrier if I may say, that they are of a different caliber than us regular human beings.

Everything they do seem perfect.

From the way they look, to the way they behave. Even the things they say, no matter how rude it is, is like music to your ears.

(Or at least it was like that for me.)

Friday, or Thursday, marked the first day I took a chance and attempt to break down that barrier between us.

Between the celebrities and me.

At first, it was pretty addictive, I must say.

You get to see people you never thought you would ever get to meet in this lifetime. And you start thinking, or fantasising, how life will be like if they had a significant part to play in your life, like dating you or even starting a family with you.

(I am called Roo KAULITZ for a reason.)

But as I attempted to break down the barrier between us, oddly enough, I started having this empty feeling inside my heart.

(I am just being melo-dramatic here.)

If there is one thing I hate feeling, it has to be the feeling of not being good enough.

(And believe me, I think about that, or feel that way on a regular basis.)

And with that barrier nearly broken down, there pretty much is nothing left for me to live for.

And hell, since Tom Kaulitz and Kan were two of the only few celebrities I am obsessed with at the moment, I hope you will be able to understand how I feel.

The two that I am obsessed about are the very two that I did not get to make contact with.

(Post-Its la. I made eye contact with Kan and I think Tom looked at my direction once.)

I hate having to think that I am not pretty or good enough for them to lay eyes on me.

(I probably am not good enough. But you are only completely defeated when you yourself think that way too.)

And there is it, shattered dreams and broken hearts were all that was left of this suicidal attempt to break that stupid barrier between the celebrities I idolise and me.

I am wondering if I had made the wrong decision, going all out just to catch a glimpse of them.

Because to them, you are probably just another face in the sea of fans they see all the time.

And they probably won't remember you unless you are super awesome enough to do something that will make them remember you enough.

I always loved having crushes on celebrities, despite their scandalous news.

Because I always thought that they were too far away to harm you, and that is very true.

I really probably shouldn't have gone all the way to see them, because it has pretty much left me devastated with the thought that all guys are the same.

If Singaporean guys are not receptive of me, what makes me think that celebrities will want me?

Hell, I hate having thoughts like that.

And worse, after seeing celebrities for the past few days, Singaporean dudes really do not cut it anymore.

Fan girl to be...

A fan girl, I have become.

Yesterday, I went down to Marina Bay Sands Resort as Media for the Lee Min Ho meet and greet session.

And straight after that, I went down to Marina Mandarin hotel to stalk F.Cuz and LM.C.

And this coming Monday, I will be heading down to Mediacorp studio for Tokio Hotel's interview on Entertainment on 5, and I am thinking whether I should go for their fansign on Wednesday.

I know the above sounds beyond crazy.

Stalking celebrities offline, in a cab and what not is not something I would do because I never thought of it to be something logical.

But after all that had happened yesterday, and the day before, I realise that celebrities probably will never remember their fans.

Anyway, F.Cuz were either dicks or their manager is one.

They didn't take any of the presents that were being shoved to them in that brief period. Oh well, they were candy in the first place.

All they could do was smile in their performance outfits at us and look at us from inside their vans.

They came down around the same time as After School, and when After School was boarding their van, the fan girls went chasing after them, leaving me behind in the dust cloud.

And there I was, standing in front of F.Cuz's van. I didn't get to make eye contact with Kan anymore. And I pretty much am not a huge fan of the other members (Sorry fan girls.)

But I guess... I could have pretty much done the Jiggy dance and waved at them in hopes of them remembering me a bit more. After all, I was the only one left right in front of their vans while the rest of the group went chasing after After School.

I like LM.C.

Aiji, despite being a meanie and not wave bye to us on Friday, waved to me when the van drove off.

And Maya waved bye to me specifically because he looked up, looking for me, just to say bye.

(Probably because we wished him happy belated birthday. ... This means he's a Leo too. :D)

I guess this is it.

I am converting from a Kpop fan girl to Jrock.

Now I wonder... how am I to send them presents. Heh.

This coming Monday, I will be seeing Tokio Hotel in the studio. I doubt I'll get to be anywhere near them. But it's nice anyway... seeing my husband right in front of me for a brief period.