Photo!

Here is evidence that I am a pedophile. ;A;

I can't help but like pretty little boys. ):

He should be 15 by now. D:

I wonder if he is still as handsome...

Picture Heavy Post.

The Blog-5-Days-A-Week thing with categories is not working out for me, obviously. :/

At the moment, I am at the crossroads of my life again. :/ I have to decide whether I am going to settle down and give into Fate, or in Chinese, 认命 , or still fight for the things I want.

And it doesn't help that I have about $6000 worth of debt. Education loan, my mother used her CPF to pay for my Polytechnic school fees. So now I have to pay it back, the full sum plus interest.

That is one of the many reasons why I have been so depressed lately. D:

Bah, anyway, I was looking through my folders in my laptop, and I found a whole bunch of random photos that I have never posted up on my blog before, probably. :/

So I shall just spam photos here, because I want to update my blog, but I am not in the mood to type out my feelings here. :/

I got a new blogskin image by the way. :D

I just need to figure out how to work the CSS thing because I have so many things I want to edit. D:

My birthday uh, last year?

Fair legs iz mine.

Curled my hair for the first time with my flat iron.

Hip-hop yo, hip-hop.

First time looking like a girl in Year 1.

Check out my ba-bling~!

Uh, camwhoring before crit. ._.

Lady Gaga shades and Lime Crime lipstick in Styletto.

One of my favourite hoodies now. :D

My coolio red hair which I miss a lot.

Ashler, Val and I at Botanical Gardens in Year 2.

Yiliang and I. D:

Fay being super kawaii. :D

SGBlogAwards 2 years ago. :/

I shall just post these up for now. :/

I sincerely hope and pray that I will be able to decide what I want to do with my life soon. ):

Random Item of the Day #2!

Random Item of the Day #2!

It has been... less than a week, and I am already feeling a little tired of blogging nearly everyday. D:

I think coming up with topics to blog about is a lot harder than it looks.

:/ I think I have a newfound respect for bloggers who update their blogs everyday, with photos and all.

I am one who can't even be bothered to Photoshop my photos and watermark them, just because my photos are nothing special. D:

So today's Random Item of the Day...

Is not really AN item, but a whole bunch of them.

This is my drawer of backups.

In it, I have...

1. 4 tubes of mascara
2. 1 tube of liquid eyeliner.
3. 6 tubes of masks, 2 of which are for removing blackheads on the nose.
4. 2 bottles of toner.
5. 2 bottles of serum.
6. 1 bottle of sunblock, surprisingly.
7. 1 tube of eyeshadow primer.
8. 3 packs of makeup wipes.
9. 2 sample-size tubes of anti-aging cream because I am a a kiasu Singaporean like that.
10. 2 tubs of moisturiser.
11. 1 tube of uh, makeup base? I bought in Hong Kong which I have no idea what to use it for. I just might give it away.
12. 4 bottles of BB cream.
13. 1 bottle of Tea Tree Oil.

Eeeyeah, that should be about it.

I like buying a whole bunch of makeup/skin care products and just keep it at home till I am done with what I am using at the moment.

Simply because sometimes, some places have sale and it is wise to stock up on stuff like my toner. And also because I like to tweak my skincare routine a bit every now and then.

I was thinking of posting up my makeup stash, I think my eyeshadow stash is pretty decent. :/ But I am in the midst of giving stuff away to friends, so I think that might wait till I am done sifting.

I will post it up soon though. ._.

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These days, I have been uh, feeling really depressed...

If that is even the right word for it.

I am sick and tired of eating, which is not normal for me because I nearly always think about food.

I don't have the urge to go shopping, which is also not normal for me because I am usually always seen shopping online, even when I have to do online research for work.

And I can't seem to find anything to do online (because I like to push blogging to the back of my head) at all. D: I used to spend my days watching Youtube videos, and now, I get bored after 1-2 hours of video watching. D:

I think I am getting tired of living, because I am not doing what I want.

D:

Being alive is depressing...

Random update.

I... couldn't find anything interesting to blog about today...

So I am just going to update slightly here because it doesn't make sense to write paragraphs and paragraphs of things that are so random. :/

• I haz found my missing $50. It flew into a little corner of my room.
• My father pronounces "Mio" as in MioTV as "Mayo".
• I realise I pack my table at least 5 times a day because I can't stand a messy table and yet I keep messing it up.
• I love Daiso, how can anyone now love it?
• I have been on a makeup/skincare clearing spree. I am giving away stuff of mine, after I have cleaned it, to friends. Not really giving, more like stuffing them with it just because I have too much and I want to buy more, therefore I need the space.
• Lately I have been feeling like a mother. :/ I am nagging friends of mine to print their stuff early.
• I am officially too fat to fit into my fat clothes. Today, the elastic band of my polka dot harem pants just went *POP*. Now I can't wear it anymore till I've fixed it.
• When elastic bands in your clothes burst, it says a lot.
• I really need to start sewing stuff again because I am pretty sure I am wasting a lot of time at home doing nothing.
• I am sad that Desperate Housewives, Big Bang Theory, Vampire Diaries, HIMYM is over. I really don't care that much about Modern Family because I hate Cam and I hate Phil.
• But I can look forward to uh, Pretty Little Liars and True Blood. :D
• Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency is very entertaining. :D
• It is official that I dislike skinny people. Skinny people, GO AWAY! D<
• I have been enjoying many good hair days because of my new hair treatment masque. :D
• Harvesting my emotions is not going well because instead of using those emotions to motivate me, I am... leaning slightly towards "giving into Fate" and just sell my soul to the corporate world.
• I am in need of a new hair colour and cut. D: Which I need help deciding. D:
• I realise I am very into purple and blue these days. I have passed the Orange phase... hopefully. :D
• My Hot Topic stuff is arriving! :D
• I am thinking of buying more lipsticks because I just found out that they may just get discontinued like that. D:
• I am very thankful that Tiger Beer keeps contacting me for Blogger Events, but D: I don't drink, even though I am of the legal age. So I am apologizing here for not replying all the time to their invitations. D:
• My eye candy is attached. Eye candy, I guess?! Given that I have yet to see his face properly... I saw him with his girlfriend today, which is a good thing. :D
• I want to curl into a ball and roll around the room and whine about my life. Don't judge me.
• I think people would love to see blogs with shitloads of photos. And if you are here because you are expecting many photos, I am sorry. I don't camwhore like the other bloggers, and I don't like sharing what I wore, ate and bought that day because :/ I eat normal food in giant portions and I wear whatever I like, and by not showing, I am saving myself the criticism from the rest of the world.
• I really need to go to Salvation Army soon to donate my clothes. D:
• I wish I had everything come easy for me. Like "I wish I could model" and TADA, I am immediately of model-material, being signed to Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency. I am referring to Brittany Picozzi here.
• I haven't been catching up with Kpop songs and news lately, just because there are too many groups out there these days, and I am listening to the older songs and Nicki Minaj these days.
• I am breaking out like nobody's business! D< Pimples, get the fuck off my awesome face, thanks.

I think that is all I have to say for now...

Will update again soon! :D