just a little rant post.

after thinking, about the same topic, over and over and over.
i honestly think i live a very pathetic life.
im 17 going on 18, single (not that i really care, seriously), i lost faith in this stupid and rather annoying thing called love and in religion and im friendless (more or less).

i have lost my best friends in life,
my friends and i, have drifted apart quite some time ago.
even though we are on talking terms, it will be.. quite uncomfortable for me to go out with them now.
i have no idea why, but it feels that way.

i just stopped hanging out with everyone.
in fact, i think i was the one who severed all ties with them.
not that i want to, i just dont like taking the initiative to talk to people sometimes.

i really want my life to change.
making friends will be a good start.

it's always during birthdays where you actually sit down and reflect on what you have done during your entire life on Earth.
and so far, the only thing im proud to say i have acheived.. is probably wearing braces for like 6 years, and that, is not something you can actually be proud of.

i guess i'll be emo-ing for the next few days or so.
i think i will need mini MnMs again.

sometimes i really wish i didnt exist.
maybe then it wouldnt hurt so much to live.