Down to earth.

I have been floating in and out of work these days~.

Floating in and out, because I feel that I am wasting time at work.
I take my time to answer emails, phone queries and update all the files that I need.

I come in to the office at 8.30am. ): Sad life, I have.
Then answer my emails with my face looking like ~.~, then proceed on to lunch at a time like this.

I'll watch Big Bang Theory or Friends on my iPod, then go back to work, answering more emails with a face like ;A; till I end work which is about... 5.30pm. ):

I am actually really tired of working a meaningless, self-deprecating job where nobody gives me the basic respect as a human.

Much as I would like to say that I am enjoying whatever I am doing now, I actually really don't.

Maybe I am exaggerating a bit, about the "nobody giving me the basic respect as a human" thing.

But let me just put it this way: at my table at work, nobody seems to think of me as a person working in my position.

This student thought I was the 2nd-level cashier, ready to tend to their every whim and fancy at the store like a circus monkey. -_-

Nah, I'm just being bitter here.
Mainly because I lack sleep these days.

I need more time to sleep, and I don't want to work anymore.
BLAAAAAAAAAAH! ):

Cryptic.

I guess I did something that was... not that nice?

I am in no position to do whatever I did, but I did it anyway.
And honestly, it made me feel better.

Because I like pushing that responsibility away from me, and to someone else I feel is more suited to take that crap. ._.

And suddenly, the world seems a lot brighter already.
n________________________________n

On the rebound now, and it's not a good thing. ):

Bitch, please.
I only date superstars.

On a random note,

1. I need a new pair of shoes. D: My Chilli Orange Vans shoes are falling apart. ): It has been 2 great years wearing you on a daily basis, dear Vans shoes of mine. So now, I'm going to get a new pair of Vans shoes because they go with EVERYTHING. :D
2. I am almost done with my cake decorating course. I'm taking a cake decorating course, did I mention? And it's with a group of uh, rich tai-tais? And they have inside information on certain news, which makes me go DDDDDDDDDDDDD: whenever they talk about stuff like that during class.
3. Still hating on my work.
4. Supposedly nice guy is not that nice after all. Hahaha. ._.
5. Did you know that facial peels are like, DA BOMB?! :DD My skin is healing up well because of them.
6. I desperately need to save up more money~ D:
7. I have been meeting up with my Poly friends for the past few days. :/ Weird, but true.
8. I do not want to see a bunch of people, still. And I don't think they know that I don't want to see their faces.
9. I'm craving for sushi, but at the same time, I'm kinda paranoid about eating sashimi. Must be the smell or something.
10. Like I said, on the rebound. :) Go figure, people.

Drama mama.

Lots of drama going on with the people I'm going to Taiwan with these days.
And I am damn sick of it.

There are 2 main parties, let's call them A and B.
(I know, I'm very creative.)

Here's the summary of the story, not complete, but it's the summary.

I'm flying to Taiwan with a group of friend's friends, there were 5 of us at first.
And right after the hotel and tickets were booked, one of the friends went to invite his friend along for the trip.

And this friend is stupidly loyal, if I may say, to a certain someone who is not nice at all. And she tends to report back whatever to that certain someone.

B and that certain someone are uh, not on friendly terms, in other words, that certain someone is B's nemisis.
And since that friend is stupidly loyal, I can safely say that this trip is not going to be a relaxing one because we all have to live our lives in constant fear, aka, going on this trip knowing that everything that happened during this trip is going to go back to that certain someone's ears.

Certain someone almost came along with us to Taiwan because friend went to invite her along, till I said "HELL NO" to her coming.
Which A then said, "it's not because you said no~~~~~~~".

As you can see, I am dealing with idiots here.

So let's just stick to my story, which is certain someone is not coming because I said no.

This is where the problem started.

Friend is coming along with her boyfriend, and her mother does not trust them enough to share a room together. Which was why friend asked certain someone along, so her boyfriend can go bunk with the guys, and friend and certain someone can bunk together.

I said no (as clearly stated above), so certain someone's not coming. So now, it's either B and I bunk in one room, A and friend bunk in another, and the guys share the triple room.

Or A, B, friend and I share a family room together, which will be a lot cheaper for all of us.

But B is not happy about it and she made it very clear that she's not happy about it.
B does not like friend, but not as much as she dislikes certain someone. And B will be civil with her in Taiwan, but the rest should not expect B to pretend to be a friend to her, which honestly it's fine.

Why put two people in a situation where it makes everyone in the group so uncomfortable?

BUT!

A cannot see that B just wants to spend time with her, with us, all when we fly off to Taiwan.
Mainly because A has that I-can-save-the-world mentality and takes it upon herself to make friend feel comfortable in the group.

It does not make sense to me, because A is just putting extra responsibility on herself when nobody expects her to. And she just... bit off more than she can chew. Friend has that friend, who asked her along, and her boyfriend, who is tagging along anyway.

A told B that she is being selfish and is, in her words, a bully, just like certain someone.

A is on the side of
"Why must we split up and play seperately~! why can't we all play together in Taiwan~!?"
When we ALL know that she's just going to put her efforts in the other friend and friend herself.

Everyone is selfish, ok?
It's really up to them to realise this themselves.

B cannot see why A wants to hang out with friend and put in more effort into the other friend and friend.

B is, to put it nicely, loyal to the point of clingy. She wants to hang out with A mainly, and then the rest of the group.
She's hating on friend right now because, I think, she thinks that friend is fighting with her for A's attention.

B was happily living under the impression that friend and her boyfriend is tagging along with the group for 2 days or so, and the rest of the days, friend and her boyfriend will go off playing on their own.

Clearly, that is not the case.

They will be tagging along,

FOR.ALL.6.DAYS.IN.TAIWAN.WITH.US.

And I thought B understood that a long time ago.

So now, A and B are technically, either on a break (like a real couple), or they are no longer friends anymore.

Personally, I am damn sick of the drama.

I am getting caught in the middle, even though I have no intentions of getting caught in the first place.

Has it ever occured to A, that she herself is being selfish as well?

Has it ever occured to B, that A has other friends too?

One day, we are all going to look back, and as they laugh at this really long and hard, I will be smacking them till they die from the pain.

My head is splitting from all the drama, because I know both sides of the story.

And honestly, it pisses me off.

I probably am genuinely self-centered that way, but I think nobody has considered how I feel.

I hate having to make concessions for people I don't like, don't care for, or in general, not close to at all.

But clearly, my wants and needs are never a priority.

I give in, because giving in is what I do. /sarcasm

And if I don't give in, I am going to be labelled as selfish, and idiots will come saying stuff like "Let's just cancel the trip" when we have paid for both the hotel and air tickets already.

There is free cancellation for the hotel, but air tickets are not refundable.

So here is what I am going to do:

One day, when I finally snap, I am going to let both of the other friends know about it.

And I am going to plan out my own itinerary.

My exact words to them, if they go "But I don't want to split~!!", will be

YOU CAN KISS MY ASS.

The more you learn, the less you know.

I wish a part of Singapore would flood again soon. ):
Not that I want to waddle in ankle-deep rainwater, but it's just too warm in Singapore these days.

I have recently gotten into trouble at work, like A LOT of trouble.
And my boss went from Dr Jekyll to Mr Hyde in the span of uh, a week or so.
(A week should not be shocking, but my boss seems to be the kind who can be mad at a person for quite some time.)

She went from telling me off, to thanking me very uh, politely.

;_;

I don't think I can keep up with this any longer though.

People at work seem to be... a lot more scheming than you think they would be.
And everything is not what it seems.

A few at work are now put in a position where they have no idea who they should trust, or who they can trust now.
I am one of them, but I am glad that I still have someone to rely on at work, kinda.
Before that someone or I leave this place first.

I can't say that it feels weird, to be put into a position where you realise that there is nobody you can trust, and you have to constantly watch your back, because this is something that I felt was to be expected in working life.

Especially since this is an all-female working environment, and the boss is never in town.

Guess you'll learn as you go along, how to see people for who they truly are.

On a MUCH lighter note:

1. I have recently purchased 4 bottles of BB Cream, and I am very happy with my purchase. :D


2. Nothing set in stone yet, but my future is in the works already. Now to give it about 2 - 3 years or so. ): Or lesser, depending on how things will progress from here.I want a friggin iPad. Bleaaaaaaaaargh!


3. And I bought a label maker. My parents don't believe in label makers. They believe in my brother, writing my name on my school books for me... that is, until my handwriting became nicer than his. ._.


4. Oh, and I'm gonna watch Wicked today. :D

There really is nothing exciting to update about right now, apart from all the drama that has been going on for the Taiwan trip, and at work.

This holiday of mine, is uh, a time-bomb.
Everyone, or rather, I am waiting for this to blow up and out of proportion. ._.

We shall see, eh. ;)

Too much of it.

I clearly need to find a better job.

Or at least, a job with better people around me.

My boss is one of the nicest females I have seen, ever.

I haven't been on task with my work these days, and instead of lashing out on me, she... talked sense to me instead.

And she was the reason why the person, who was making my work life difficult, was made to leave, kinda.

Obviously, I cannot let her know what is the reason why I have been acting like this. -_-

Because if I explain everything from start till end, it will just make it seem like I am a problematic person to work with, and all I am capable of is causing trouble for her and her company.

I have heard things, coming out of peoples' mouths at work, that are not very nice at all.

Typical.

They went judging me from my character, to my attitude towards them.

All that, I heard coming out of the people you least suspect, right outside the room the were in.

Listening into other peoples' private conversation is not right.

But I heard them while I was looking for something pretty far away from the room, the door was closed, and their voices were loud.

The joy.

Surprisingly, I didn't feel hurt at all.

Maybe I expected it already.

And they were pretending to be civil towards me, right in front of my face.

The fucking joy.

It all started because somebody did not what they wanted.

Now, I am being attacked for getting whatever they wanted.

Thing is, I am not happy at work.

Or just not happy in general, and I have no idea how to make myself happy again.

Talking to people doesn't seem to help.

Because it just makes me more self-conscious than I already am.

It makes me think that I am being more self-centred than I already am, constantly babbling on and on about how sad my life is.