welcome to my world.

i shall throw my face away on cyber world and reveal to whoever is reading my blog, MY ROOM.

it is in a HUGE state of mess right now.
D: it's more like a dump rather than my room.
but still, this is the place where i emo, surf the net and avoid my mother.

here's an overview of it.
:/
*CLICK TO ENLARGE.*

my very messy bookshelf and its many many things around.
yeaah, that's a GIRNORMOUS CLICK FIVE BOARD.
:/ im thinking whether i should throw it away.
if there's any click five fan out there, and wants the board, please tell me.
i'll sell it to you for like... $20?

D: i have clothes everywhere around my room.

the printer, very near the bookshelf.

my study table, apparently.
but i do my homework on the dining table instead since it's so... cluttered and messy.
bah!

a bunch of colourful stuff on my table.
:D

my L poster by my bedside.


so people, if next time you ask to come over to my house, and i say it's damn messy.
you'll get what i mean.

a little something to digust all you people.

im friggin sleepy now.
D:

but i have tons of homework to complete.
im not the sort of person who will complete their work asap so as to be able to rest the day away. as shown on this post.
im more of a my-pace person.
i like to pace myself slowly, instead of rushing out my work like there's no tomorrow.

bah.
autocad today wasnt as bad as last week's.
where my stomach churned and tied itself into that huge knot.
today, i finally learnt how to scale something.
D: like finally.
jeffu wasted a semester of teaching autocad on me.

i shall, attempt to complete as much of my homework as i can.
and try skip consultation tomorrow and not get picked out for it.
bah, im friggin tired.
): all i want to do now is sleep.

so pictures!
to make my post a wee bit more interesting.
:D

roo and ah mun at daiso.
): they ran out of the lion headbands.
... at least this matches with what i was wearing that day.


i hope you had a heavy dinner.
:D
because im hoping to get some people really disgusted by the pictures im about to show next.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW FOOD.
chicken steaks and ribs at the bbq on saturday.


here's a close up of the fats.
at least, it tasted a lot better than it looks.
after it's being cooked, of course.


my finger bled the other night.
yeah, night.
i dont know what i did, but it just started bleeding, and refuse to stop.
noooo, i dont have a Vitamin K deficiency.
there's just something wrong with me.
i keep bleeding for no reason.

... my face bleeds occasionally too.

AND THIS!
SUSHI!
:D
rah, i hate my crooked tooth.


so there, hope you puke out your dinner.
:D

things i think about during detox.

what's up with the obsession of skinny girls thinking they are fat.
D:

like really, WHAT'S UP WITH IT.
BAH!

it's like shooting me in my face that im fatter.
D:
sometimes ah, people should just be happy with the way their bodies are.
only fat people should say, "D: omg, im so fat~."
whatever, seriously whatever!

skinny people who goes on and on and on about being fat should just shoot themselves in the head.

pfft!

... and i think im blogging this out, because im feeling awfully fat today.
heh.

roo is pure evil, probably. :/

sometimes how people treat me, and the way they do stuff makes me want to insult and hurt them physically them till they cry.

right now, i feel like doing so, to this particular someone.
that kinda reminds me of the reason why i avoided her with my dying will in school last time.

... please dont let me see her again, ever.
i have no idea what i'll say or do to her.

i probably just like to hurt people.
and their fragile, little hearts.
the thought of hurting someone i dislike so much till they cry makes me awfully happy inside.

im like a total bitch.
bah!
:/

random.

i made a mohawk with some conditioner.
i should be a guy, like totally.
hahaha!

like what char said...

got the news about a fairsian who probably committed suicide.
it's sad.
but im not feeling anything.
why am i such a heartless person.
im not a close friend of hers.
im merely an accquaintance.

i met her last year, on the second day of school.
because we were both in trouble for hair.
we talked a little, said hi every now and then in school.
and we just stopped, because i guess it became pointless.

i read her friends' blogs.
her friends were sad.
and one of them wrote this that made me a little... teary eyed, i guess.
she said

"We've been friends for 7 years, I thought 7 years was long.
But now, you'll always be my friend for 7 years,only 7 years.
No matter how old I grow, we've only spent 7 years together.
I swear, I would give the world to see you again, hear your laughter again.
You promised me you'll wait for me to come out from hostel,
Now that you're gone,
365days later, you will not be at lao di fang waiting for me.
So how am I supposed to live without you here with me?
I'll miss you so much you know, so much.
No other human can replace the place you took in my heart.
I love you, always have and always will."

-EXTRACTED FROM ONE OF HER FRIEND'S BLOG.-

it makes me wonder, how many people will feel the same way this friend of hers did.
life is really THAT fragile, THAT short and THAT unpredictable.
and like what char said,
"and we are reminded once again..."

i remember praying hard that it will be the end of the world by the time im done with my o levels.
and now, i guess im "living the moment" in poly.

like what char said...
that girl had a future.
life would get better for her if she had lived on.
and to die without seeing the world and growing up is a really sad thing.

sigh.
we should just all do what Tokio Hotel says:
"LIVE EVERY SECOND"
(it's a song in their album Scream.)